I just got a spam email with the subject : Murder your debt, Mwahaha :)

That's really wierd.

I finally got my hair trimmed and fixed this morning. Just 2 minutes from my mom's place, there's a hair salon which charges $8/cut, $20/color. The woman who runs it is argueably the ugliest woman in the world, but she knows her stuff and every time I go I'm pretty happy with the results.

So, she fixed my crooked bangs and styled my hair so it's curled into this flip. It looks a bit hootchie momma, a little ghetto J-lo, but at least its even now and that's all I care about.

Yesterday I got my oil changed at this shop down the street. First of all, the guys were perving on my boobs which was disconcerting (pay attention to your work fockers!) and second, they used 10W30 instead of 15W40 (oil specifically for diesel engines). So, I had to make them flush out the system and replace it with the right kind of oil. The guy tried to convince me that 10W30 was okay for my engine, trying to make me feel as if I were some dumb female truck owner, but then he got to hear my diatribe on why you can't use 10W30 in a diesel engine (the ash content is higher and it'll plug up your valves - your factoid of the day). Anyhoo, that was fun. :) Woohoo, girl power! (I was watching E! True Hollywood Story on the Spice Girls last night - ziga ziga)

3:45am. An hour most people don't see, I was up and running about the apartment getting ready for the drive down to LA today. 2 hours of driving in the dark, then at 6:30am, someone turned the light switch on and it was instantly light out. I made it here in 5 1/2 hours, with a wrong turn on 405. Not bad.. not bad at all! Okay the enter key on my sister's laptop doesn't work, so this is just going to be one big paragraph. I was looking for a toy for China to play with in the garage and found an old shoebox of CD's I used to have. Included were: Motley Crue, Bell Biv Devoe, 2 NKOTB CDs, DJ Jazzy Jeff and the Fresh Prince, Prince and the New Power Generation, 2 Extreme CDs, 2 Bon Jovi tapes, Scorpions, Expose, Firehouse, Nelson and assorted singles: Great White/Once Bitten Twice Shy, White Lion/When the Children Cry, Tom Petty/Free Fallin', Queensryche/Silent Lucidity, Timmy T/One More Try, INXS/Suicide Blonde, Tevin Campbell/Tell Me What You Want Me to Do. Ahhh.. pretty boy metal rocked.

Last night I went for a lovely ride on Isabella and forgot my woes. The barn is a magical place.. a place to shed all your grievances and worries and bask in the quiet aura that equines can share with us. Hm. I sound like I'm on drugs. But I'm not I swear.

Merima is sick, so I'm paranoid that I might be coming down with a bug as well. But I've armed myself; last night I went to Target and bought a humidifier, zinc lozenges (Cold-eeze), and super-duper doses of Vitamin C. So far its seems to be working. The sore throat I had is gone and my nose isn't tickling anymore. Go go gadget immune system, go!!

Tomorrow I will be waking up at 4am to drive down to LA with Mark and China. I'm much more of a lucid morning driver than an evening driver, so I'm hoping we'll miss most of the I5 traffic. Last year we entertained ourselves the whole way down by making faces at passerbys and judging their reactions. Mark would stuff the end of a tissue up his shnooz and stare at people as we passed. Most people ignored him. A few gave their approval by signalling with the 'thumbs-up' sign. A few flipped him off.

I fucking *love* turkey. GOBBLEGOBBLE!

I went to the Peter Thomas salon on Saturday to get my haircut. Don't go there. I repeat, unless you want your hair absolutely thrashed, stay away.

My haircut took an hour and 15 minutes.. for a trim. I think the girl that cut my hair was new, but it gave me time to observe an interesting woman. Peter Thomas, the owner of the salon, was cutting hair right next to where I was getting mine cut. So obviously, he has the clients who spent almost $100 to get their locks chopped. In came this woman, straight from the arms of her wife-beater wearing husband who dropped her off in their mobile home, to Peter Thomas's chair. Well, probably not. She's probably a hippy Berkeley-ite who saves the environment and homeless during the week and gets $100 haircuts on the weekend (but who am I to judge?). Anyhoo, she sits down and tells Peter she just wants a "trim". That his people did such a good job on her last time, that all she wants is a "clean up". Okay, now to describe her hair: it was grey, poofy, cut short all around her head except for the back which reached past her shoulders.

Yup, you got it.. a mullet. She loved her mullet and wanted to keep it.

I almost cried out in my seat.

Anyways, did I mention I've been crabby lately? Almost everyone around me has been irritating the fuck outta me. I can't wait to go home.

Relationships are like Rome. Difficult to start out, incredible during the prosperity of the 'Golden Age', and unbearable during the fall. Then, a new kingdom will come along and the whole process will repeat itself until you come across a kingdom like Egypt...that thrives, and continues to flourish. This kingdom will become your best friend, your soulmate, and your love.
--Helen Keller

At the moment I'm somewhere in Iceland, sitting on my porch and shaking my fist at the passerbys that get too close. "Why I oughtta......!"

It was a fun weekend despite a crabby foul mood that underlyed the past few days and decided to come out full force last night and this morning.

Anyways this weekend:
-Merima and I made a fool out of ourselves doing Karoake with our neighbors and a bunch of strangers we'll never meet again
-Rode Isabella
-Rode my bike to my hair cut appointment. I hate my new haircut. It sucks.
-Went to Shelley's birthday party. Got really drunk and acted very juvenile with Merima. Touched many many asses that evening. Tried to stand sideways on the wall.
-Went hiking yesterday with Walt and made him tell me all the secrets he knew. Now I have blackmail info (although Merima is better at interrogating him than me)
-Got despondent and sad last night after realizing that all the men in my life suck ASS. Received a phone call from my dad who offered condolences to my breakup that happened 5 weeks ago. ARGH!!! I need to really hit something right now.

Oh yeah, Merima, Walt, and I watched Mulholland Drive last night. Confusing movie. Considered becomming lesbian again after watching all of those fine boobies, but I think I'd miss penis too much. What I need is a fine, big-boobed man who doesn't act like a guy.

Sometimes I really wish I had a Tibetian monk email pal. Someone I could confide in and gain guidance from when I'm feeling like this.

Dear Monk,
How're you? I'm fine. Okay, I'm not. I'm feeling upset and I'm not exactly sure of the source. Well, maybe I do. It's because I continue to have expectations of those around me which are not being met. But I don't think I ask for much.. but in the whole, maybe it doesn't matter how big or small these expectations are. Maybe I shouldn't have them at all. I feel like a hemmorrhoid! Sorry if that offends. But I feel like I'm allowing myself to become exposed by reaching out for happiness when I should be finding it within. I allow myself to slip like this, which is only human nature.. but I was feeling weak, and now I'm raw and hurt. And right now I need some Prep H or laser surgery to stick me back in because its quite painful and it hurts to walk. Okay, maybe that was a bad analogy, but you know what I'm saying? Anyways, I'd appreciate some advice on coping through times like this. I'm breathing.

Pictures of China on her lovely, plush new bed..

Image 1
Image 2

She looks strange in the second picture because I wanted her flopped over like the dog in the catalogue, but she wouldn't so I had to manually push her over and she just kinda stuck like that. Silly girl!

In the light of recent news events, I thought I'd republish this photo.



I'd like to get me some a 'dat, awww yeah.

Today was my maiden voyage, yes my dears, I rode my bike into work.

I am quite out of biking shape. I could feel my legs muscles strain as I negotiated the Berkeley streets against the wind. I hope my leg muscles don't bulk out like Arny's. That would indeed suck.. maybe my butt will get bigger and more muscular. That would be funny.

Let me just say it was freezing cold this morning. But I had on my lovely scarf and mittens, given to me by Mark to keep me warm. It's only supposed to get colder in the next few days, and weather reports are predicting below-freezing temperatures for the next few mornings, whee!

Last night I was quite unproductive. The only thing I accomplished was painting my nails which were sadly overdue. I am such not the girly-girl. Merima then brought home sushi and I stole a few from her and we watched Sleepless in Seattle. I always cry in that movie.. not at the end when Meg Ryan and Tom Hanks meet.. because all I can really think of is, "Wait until she finds out how loud he snores", but when Tom Hanks is describing his deceased wife and how much he loved her and what about her he loved. I really do think there is one person out there for each of us. Whether we are to cross paths in our lives is the true question.. maybe its fate, or the accumulation of Karma, or if we're one of God's favorites. Who knows. I've never had the feeling in the relationships I've been of security in knowing *this* was the one I am meant to be with, and I'm wondering if that feeling is instantly known or if you have to grow to feel that way. Merima and I agreed that the reason there are so many divorces out there is because a lot of people settle when searching for their mate.

My doctor's appointment was yesterday. It didn't go as bad as I expected. As always, I declined to be weighed. I am preventing anything that will open the door to destructive thinking like that, the numbers will always be bad no matter what they are. I'm learning to think differently and I'm way more comfortable in my skin then I was a year ago, hell even 3 months ago. I exercise, I eat well, and those destructive habits I had are all but gone in my life. Bottom line, my doctor said she wants me to continue on the Welbutrin and not think about quitting for the next 6 months until we can re-evaluate. She also wants me to work up to a pill a day instead of 1/2 a pill like I've been taking. This means more peeing. UGH!

Anyways on lighter notes, this weekend will be fun. Tonight Merima and I are going to our neighbor's birthday party in the city, then another friend's birthday party on Saturday night. Party hardy dudes, ROCK ON!

Mental note: must clean apartment..

Our Netflix Movies for the Weekend:
Mulholland Drive
Saving Private Ryan
24, season 2, disc 2

Gutten mornink!

I am sitting here drinking my green tea (because I'm stopped up) and wondering if I will have to convince Merima to skip our Karate class on Saturday morning. Not for any reason of course, except to sleep in. *sends mental vibes* Last night after playing pool, we decided to get married. Actually Merima suggested it and I accepted. And so it shall be. In a purely lesbionic manner.

This morning I got up expecting to ride my new lovely bike to work.. alas, at the last moment I remembered I had an afternoon appointment at the doctor's all the way across town! POOP. I wouldn't have minded biking there, but until I get my helmet I want to stay away from busy streets like Ashby and Telegraph. I'm paranoid I tell ya.

Has anyone seen the Paris Hilton video? I got it by accident on Kazaa last night.. (which is a whole different story - I download episodes of Aqua Teen Hunger Force and Sealab 2021 and I get porn thrown in the mix. SCORE!! I mean, what the fuck?) Anyhow, I was looking in my kazaa directory and I have the hilton video. So I take a looksie. The video quality is horrible.. they both look like they have flashlights glowing out of their eyes.. what, was the video shot with infared technology or something? Very unattractive. And in the middle of the whole thing, she's all over the place, and not in a good way.. checking how she looks, answering her cell phone.. who the hell answers their phone in the middle of sex? On camera? I think she must've been on coke.

China got her uber-cushy bed last night. It's gigantic! Merima and I have decided it would be suitable for guests when they sleep over.. so we'll just throw it in the living room for them to use. If China will let them have it - as soon as I put it down, she wouldn't stop sitting on it. Even when I'd walk around the apartment, she'd just lean over and stare at wherever I was from her bed. Freaky, but cute.

I'm worried about the doctor. Part of me thinks I'm all over that. But I know I have the possibility of my ED coming back full force if I decide to go down that road.

Changed my guestbook questions.. go sign! It's good times :D

Dove's dark chocolate is heavenly. A pharmaceutical rep came through our office with a bag of those little heart shaped chocolates and offered me some yesterday. Of course without shame I reached in and said, "I'm going to take two!" She said, "You can take four!" And I said, "Okay!" and I took 4.

That is all.

And the shopping continues.. I really have to stop.

I bought a big doggy bed for China, this helmet on ebay, and gloves to wear in the cold while biking. Any excuse to shop. I really must stop. I'm trying to pay *off* my credit card bills, not rack them up!! *cry* You know what I'll do? I'm going to take my credit cards and freeze them like they say you should on TV. This is becomming a problem.

Soon this shall be China Vagina:


Last night I had a lovely ride on Isabella. She's so beautiful and pretty! I <3 her! <3 her!! She loves me too!! (especially because I give her food) This time of year she's all fuzzy because of her winter coat.. and as I'm getting her tacked up I'll just wrap my arms around her neck and inhale her warm, horsey scent. It's one of the best smells in the world, I tell ya. Her body is slowly turning white with age, with few dapples now, but her mane and tail are remaining dark. It makes me smile to think about her.

Lizette scanned a few childhood pictures and shared them on her site.. here's one of both of us. Aren't we darling? Who knew of all the screaming fights/carnage that were to come?

I finished the first disc to season 2 of '24' last night. What the hell?? I thought Nina died?? What's going on?? Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!

If I had the cajones and the $$, I'd totally wear this helmet while biking around Berkeley.



How dorky would I be? I'd also wear lots of flourescent spandex to piss everyone off.

I am a garlic mess today! Last night I came home to Merima chowing down on some heavenly fries drenched in garlic.. so of course I had some. At that point she was sick of her fries, so as a dutiful roommate, I finished them off, knowing I'd regret my decision later. And I did. Today I feel bloated and yucky.. garlic, my dear sweet garlic, how I love thee, why must you make me feel so after such pleasurable delights bursting upon my taste buds?

Afterwards we watched Frida which came from our second installment of movies from Netflix. Let me just say that you men out there should just rent this movie for the boobage/assage alone. There are some amazing bodies, and Selma Hayek's rack is incredible! She seriously has the best boobs I've ever seen! Boobs to aspire to.. and a body to die for. I want her boobs/body. Not in a lesbionic kind of way. Okay, maybe. Just kidding. Or am I..

I <3 my new bike. I just gaze upon it lovingly whenever I'm sitting in the living room. Every time I pass by it, I caress the lines upon its frame, dreaming of the times to come when we'll be flying through the street together. One day. Maybe Thursday after I buy a helmet I will start biking to work.. Thursdays and Fridays. Then we shall be one!

I don't know why I'm so wierd today.. must be the garlic. I think I ate the equivalent of about 5-6 cloves. *gag*

Busy crazy weekend!

It started out Friday evening at Amit's dinner party. He made his famous bengali fish, for which there is no equivalent! Quite yummy.. and we finished the meal off with my pumpkin pie (why do I always write 'pumpking'? Who is the Pump King that is taking over my brain??) which turned out quite delish. All pumpkin pies should be made with graham cracker crusts. Afterwards Merima and I went to shoot pool.. in quite possibly the best games I've ever played. I was rocking! Merima was rocking! It was great.. if I were a carpet muncher, I'd totally do this gal cuz she's AWESOME!

The next day was crazy. Saturday morning, Merima and I convinced each other that we really didn't need to wake up early for our Karate class (and damnit, if I didn't have to beg and plead with her). I woke and worked out on the elliptical machine for a bit, then went to ride Isabella. I had a great ride on her.. fresh after the rain, the earth smelled wonderful and clean. I ran home, then picked up my digitial camera which I went to meet up with this gal to trade for her mountain bike (which I really needed). We meet in the dorm parking lot and I get up on her bike to try it out. After murmuring something about 'not ridden a bike in 6 years', I fell off almost immediately. Quite funny, but completely embarrassing. I am a total dork.

That evening I chilled out at home after running a few more errands. The zucchini bread I made turned out yummy even after messing up a little on the recipe. I watched Animatrix then went on Ebay and shopped until 2 in the morning. Christ. I need to stop the Ebay!! In the past few days I've bought:

This
tHis
thIs
and thiS

This madness has to stop!!

The next morning I went on a lovely hike with Walt. It was great walking and chatting it up with him.. he reminds me a lot of Mark, and it's nice to have friends I feel I can be in my comfort zone. In the evening, Travis and I went to play pool where I wasn't quite as awesome as before.. and then we went to see Matrix: Revolution. A lovely evening was had by all and this morning I woke up late because my alarm never went off (doh).

Here's my horoscope that turned up on my yahoo today: Today you should be looking and feeling great, and you might find yourself attracting admiring looks from those whom you pass on the street. Sex and romance might be on your mind, dear Aquarius, and you're likely to want to spend the day with your special someone. You could also channel those feelings into creative activities of some kind. Information may come your way that sets your mental juices flowing. Make the most of it!
Woohoo! That "special someone" must mean my therapist, because that's who I'm spending this evening with... yeeehaw!

When I'm bored at work, I look through the 'for sale' ads on craigslist, searching for the next exciting item I "need" to deplete my checking account.

Every so often you'll see posts selling used porn videos which amuses me. I mean, don't people realize you're going to have to meet up with this person? You're going to have to meet this person with a straight face while exchanging "Hot Butts, volume 4" or "Seymore Butts Tushy Bowl 2001" while knowing he/she rubbed one out while watching this video.

Just some random musings.

I have to update my links.. another one of my friends now has an online journal for the masses to spy on his personal life, including his list of 'Stuff I bought at Target'.

Last night after a yummy Turkish dinner, Walt, Merima, Raj and I went to Albatross to play a bit of Killer Uno and darts. I love playing Killer Uno with Raj because most of the game he is utterly confused and after anyone puts down a card (including himself), he asks "Is it my turn yet?"

Last night I also managed to poke Walt with the darts as I was handing them to him for his turn. I cried and was totally apologetic, but I got the DNA sample I needed for my master plans.

MUHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

MUHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!

MUHAHA.

MU. HA.

What are you looking at??

Fear my boobs.

Our urban mountain man has struck once again. A few morning ago, Merima found a well-traveled pouch of Pedigree wet dog food waiting on our window sill.. which apprently is the offering spot for his gifts. It is needless to say I haven't fed any of it to China. Not only is it mysterious and a bit frightening for my dog to be given gifts of food from strangers, her diet must stick to her expensive kibble which gives her lots and lots of gas. What would she be without her flatulence, but merely a brown dog?

Also on the home front, the seeds I planted a few months ago have begun to blossom. Is that strange for plants to blossom this time of year? It's beginning to look like the amazon rain forest in my little planters below the stairs in front of our apartment. Because they are budding from my green leaves (my children), I consider these new arrivals my grandchildren. I'm a grandmommy *sniff*.

Last night Merima and I discovered a new sushi restaurant on Telegraph. We ate the 'Sushi Lovers Special' because we are LOVERS (of sushi) and for the first time in my life, I think I overdid the sushi. Dragon roll, tuna rolls, california roll, spicy tuna hand roll.. I curse thee! I've had enough of this tom foolery. No more!!

Last night we received the first of our Netflix movies, American History X, Animatrix, and 24 Season 2, disc 1. Because Merima had already seen American History X before and was going to bed, I stayed up and watched.. interesting disturbing movie. But throughout it all I kept wondering who the hell the gal was that was playing Edward Norton's sister? I finally looked it up this morning.. it was Kes from Star Trek: Voyager! I love this actress.. she always speaks in a voice 2 octaves below normal and it's so friggin sexy. I want to talk like that.. but I think I'd freak people out.

Edward Norton was hot, all buffed out. Yum.

Last night in a baking frenzy I made a pumpkin pie with graham cracker crust (since I <3 graham crackers) and pumpkin bread with hazelnuts and dried cranberries. I love baking! My dream would be to have a huge marbled kitchen with shiny stainless steel equipment. I especially love the fall because pumpkin is one of my most favoritist ingredients. The pumpkin butter from Trader Joe's is the most delicious stuff.. but I can't buy it because I'll eat the whole jar in one sitting. I love making bread. I love making cakes and rolls. But they all usually go bad because aside from a taste and a few slices, they are untouched by me.

Hm. I sound like Martha Stewart in that paragraph.

Anyhow, that is all.

My 'Word of the Day' from my yahoo page has been 'cavort' for the past 8 days now. For the love of God, I know what it means to frolic, to frisk!! Give me another word already!!

Last night I went out to Indian food with Merima and her mother. I'm not sure why, but it gives me a sense of home to be with them.. I think because her family has been through their personal hell and back, similar to mine. There is a strong unity between them which will never be broken and it reminds me of the relationship between Mark, Lizette, and our mom. I had this Indian dish with chicken and spinach which looked like watery Isabella poo and had to block all images of poo out of my mind to be able to eat it. The food was good, but it looked like diarrhea and I hope it doesn't come out that way like the last time I ate Indian food.

After we got home, I felt dumpy because of all the food I just ate so I worked out and watched 'Finding Nemo'. I <3 that movie! Must get China new cushy dog bed. Hers is completely flat and I worry about her because we have hardwood floors.

I saw something that amused me this afternoon..

I'm walking around downstairs in my building to finish up some work I started this morning. The whole area is now being repainted this dreary greyish-blue color (they needed to make this concrete walled building even more oppressive). One of the maintenance guys, a black dude - quite masculine, or so I thought, is on a ladder, painting the walls. The radio is on and he's singing in this high falsetto voice:

Dream lover, come rescue me.. oooooOOOooo.. baby..
I need you so desperate..ly..
Take me up, take me down, cuz I wanna share forever with you bayyybeeeeeee..

I don't know if he didn't see me or whatever, but he was really belting it out, quite Mariah Carey-ish and he obviously didn't mind sharing with the rest of the residents on the 1st floor..

Whenever I see people like that it makes me smile.. not only because it's funny as shit, but he obviously was enjoying himself doing what he was doing..

My weekend was quiet and fun.. I spent most of it at Andrea's place, catching up with my horsey friends and eating well. Her hubby was gone for a boy's poker weekend at their house on the river (yep, they're loaded) so the girls got to have full access to their hot tub, trampoline, and pool table. Did I mention we ate well? Marinated tri-tip, salad with my new discovery - Lite Salsa Ranch (its delish), and homemade sage-cheddar biscuits with homemade cookies for dessert. China and I spent the night at her place and in the morning Andrea made scrambled eggs with cracked pepper and parmesian cheese, chicken apples sausages, and homemade pumpkin coffee cake.

MMmm.

Most of the gals were older, in their mid-thirties and we talked about a variety of subjects, including relationships (of course). Most of them were negative.. Andrea's new marriage is going beautifully and to listen to her talk to her hubby over the phone was endearing.. ahh, they're so cute. However, just the other morning, two of her close friends lamented to her over breakfast about their failing relationships. One was due to differences which were seperating them emotionally, and the other girl who I've met before, was upset because her boyfriend was still talking with the woman he admitted to cheating with 9 months ago!! Ugh.

Dorice, another woman who was at the party, admitted her and her husband weren't as close anymore. She married him at the ripe age of 21 and now at age 37, she feels frustrated in their relationship.

Just goes to show that no matter how pretty a picture looks like from afar, if you look closely each one has its own stains and imperfections.

Anyways, the whole experience reminded me of the feelings when I was with Travis; the fear and anxiety, worry and tension that arose during my relationship with him. It reminded me of all the negatives.. and that being in any sort of relationship isn't necessarily "better" than being single.

When I came home Sunday, Merima and I went to Blockbuster to rent a few movies for the evening. I didn't want to change out of my pajamas (which I had been wearing all day) so Merima kindly donned her pajamas and fluffy shoes so I wouldn't feel so underdressed at the store. What a friend! We rented this fucked up French movie with the actress from Amelie, and Sliding Doors, a movie with Gweneth Paltrow.. basically another 'scummy-guy' movie with men cheating on her and lying about being married.

I guess you can pretty much surmise how I felt by the end of the weekend.

I think I'm going to name my kid 'Niobe'. Either that or 'Merovingian'. Cool names.

Last night, a bunch of us went to see Matrix: Revolution. I won't say much about it, but if you're a Matrix fan and come in with no expectations except to be entertained, you'll enjoy it. The battles scenes were incredible.

I don't know what the hell I ate last night, but before and after the movie I felt incredibly dizzy and naseous. Let's see.. for dinner I had a salad with a hard boiled egg and a few oyster crackers. For lunch I had a chicken masala frozen food thingy from Trader Joe's.

I also changed allergy medication temporarily.. usually I take Zyrtec everyday, but since the pharmacy shortchanged me 12 pills, I am taking Allegra samples my doctor gave me until it can be refilled. Side effects of Allegra include dizziness and nausea.. ack! But I need allergy meds! Fucking health insurance.

So I went home ill and stood over the toilet completely dizzy. At that point there was nothing left in my stomach to come up because it had been 6 hours since I ate. So I swigged some Pepto and crashed around 11. Another wierd thing was I must've gotten up around 6 times to pee last night. What the hell's going on? GRR.

I apologize in advance.. completely bored at work so I'm filling out this pointless survey.

.PAST.

1) first grade teacher's name: Mrs. Frank
2) last word you said: No problem
3) last song you sang: Dido, Don't think of Me
4) last thing you laughed at: hm, I don't remember laughing today.. just smiling.
5) last time you cried: last week sometime

.PRESENT.

1) what's in your cd player: Dido, No Angel
2) what color socks are you wearing: white
3) what's under your bed: China hair, used tissues, lube, important papers and items
4) what time did you wake up today: 7:30am

.FUTURE.

1) what is your career going to be: Mad Scientist
2) where are you going to live: somewhere in California
3) how many kids do you want: 2
4) what kind of car will you drive: Porsche 911 Carrera Cabriolet, or a big fucking Jeep

.CURRENT.

1) current hair: frizzies straightened, and curled
2) current clothes: plum colored Express top, and jeans, with a metal link belt
3) current jewelry: black floral chocker
4) current annoyance: none
5) current smell: Bath & Body night blooming jasmine lotion
6) current longing: to be entertained
7) current desktop picture: nice quiet forest scene with moss covered tree trunks and flora
8) current favorite music artist: Depeche Mode, forever!
9) current book: Peace is Every Step
10) current worry: none
11) current hate: none
12) story behind your username: 'Akasha' chosen back in '93 when I started reading the Vampire Chronicles and needed a handle
13) current favorite article of clothing: jacket = warmth, though I do love the Gap gloves and scarf I got from Mark a few years ago.
14) favorite physical feature on a boy? young, boyish features, with underlying dark tones..
15) one person you wish was here right now: nobody
16) i am happiest when..: Doing what I want to do
17) i feel lonely when..: I'm going to the bathroom. I wish I had company.
18) favorite author(s): nobody
19) do you think too much: try not to
20) if you could live anywhere in the world, where: California, but any where China and Isabella are would suffice
21) do you have any regrets: no
22) sex or love: <3
23) favorite coffee: I can't tell the difference between coffees.
24) favorite smell: Bath & Bodyworks Lime and Coconut lotion. Mm.
25) what makes you mad: hypocrisy
26) favorite way to waste time: watching high-stakes No Hold 'em Texas Poker!
27) what is your best quality: fiercely loyal to true friends and family
28) are in currently in love/lust: not at this moment, though the lust thing can change on a moment's notice

Last night I dreamt I was browsing through the aisles in an auto parts store / adult porn store. A meccha for men who like to shop.

Crazy dreams.. I'm not sure why. I've never dreamt and remembered this much before.. let alone the bizarre dreams I've been having lately.

I was so productive last night! Took China to the dog park, made marinated ahi tuna for dinner, wrote letters to satiate an anti-Bush activist, cleaned the kitchen, and applied Rain-X to all the windows of my truck. Then I nested myself in the couch and tuned in to watch the tele. I was just in time to see Kathy Bates hammer off James Caan's ankles in the movie, Misery. Ugh. I remember how horrifying that movie was the first time I saw it.. and last night was no different. So I switched the channel and watched the World Poker Tour Championships until about 11 when I passed out. I'm getting to know the top elite poker players now.. it's super.

When I first got my digital camera, I used to laugh insanely at the genius that is I for photoshopping random things into existing pictures.

Case in point.
Another case in point.
Last case in point.

As I left work and walked to my car, I saw the following bumper sticker:

Moss & Sons
"No Muff is too Tuff"

Signs indicating that is was a muffler company were not seen until I passed the car's passenger-side door.

Poo. I had a crush on Donatello.. It's wierd that you can have a crush on a turtle, but somehow I managed.


You are Leonardo...You are hardworking and posess
strong leadership abilities. You can be a bit
overbearing at times, but we still love you!


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I just remembered an amusing dream I had last night.

Some background: There have been some marinated ahi tuna steaks that have been sitting in the freezer for a while. I told Merima that I'd go ahead and make them tonight, but yesterday I was wondering to myself how I'd serve them.

My dream: I was on a quiz show in front of a large audience. The anouncer asks me, "What is the best way to serve ahi tuna steaks?!" I timidly reply, "On a bed of lettuce?" The audience erupts in cheers. "That IS RIGHT!" announcer booms. I jump up and down, hooray for me!!

And so it shall be.

Our apartment complex has a unique mix of characters. We have our young maintenance man across the way who listens to U2 every night and croons along, reliving his Bono dream. He also always has at least 3 dogs trapped in his car at any time, but he's not the point of my post today. No indeedy.

There is a man who lives on the second floor across the way. He does not posess a car, but a bike he rides around Berkeley which contains 3 huge baskets, 2 on either side of his rear wheel, and one up front ET style. The baskets are filled with all of his worldly posessions which include stuff he picks up from his excursions around Berkeley. Fish twine, empty soda cans, plastic shopping bags, and the sort.

He looks like a 50+ year old mountain man. His face is grizzly and covered in a grey crazy mess of a beard. China hates him. Several times during the summer, the temperatures became too hot for him and he decided to ride around town without his shirt on. Here's the bizarre part. His physique rivals that of a world class Olympian. Dude sports a 6-pack and his arms are cut like Arny, what the fuck?

Anyhow, he seems to have a fascination with China. Of course, my little pup growls at him and will not allow him anywhere near her when he reaches to pet her. A few months ago, he found an old dog collar he found somewhere, and saved it in his basket to offer it to me one night. I politely declined.

This morning, I found a worn book of puppy photos resting outside our window. I am assuming this discreet present came from China's admirer across the way.

More adventures to come in the urban mountain man / China saga.

I thought I'd share with y'all a few of the more interesting search words used to find my site:

milfing
"mom's bikini"
34hh boobs
pictures of big noses
blog stoned sex 3some
ass tasting
bukkake courtesy (my personal favorite)
bengali fuck tales
fumanchu mustache pictures

Very nice.

Last night I had an appointment with my therapist. After a huge information diarrhea session of about 30 minutes, I had nothing left to say. At this moment, I am more at peace with the world than I've ever been, and he said it eminated on my face. I am more relaxed and accepting of the course of my life.

Only time will tell the outcomes of the decisions I've made. Rather than fight, I choose to accept them as they come. (a la Morpheus from Matrix: Reloaded, which I saw for the second time last night. **On a side note, the gratuitous orgy scene didn't seem so orgyish this time. Don't know why.)

Mark, I hope you're feeling better. My little brother is going through stressful times right now at school and feeling detached from friends/family. Send him good thoughts. Thankfully Thanksgiving is only 3 weeks away.. so we'll be driving home soon.

I had a dream this weekend that keeps entering my thoughts. As I was sleeping, I dreampt there was an old man who was sleeping in bed next to me. Purely non-sexual, just sleeping by my side. Watching him sleep, all I could think of was that I had to remember to wash the sheets lest there be old man crusties left on my bed after he left in the morning. Good times.

I think its amazing and awesome that P.Diddy ran and completed the NY Marathon. Saturday evening I was watching MTV's documentary on how he progressed in his training sessions, and I honestly didn't think the guy could do it, seeing how big of a gut he had when he started just 2 months previous. But he did.. and raised $2 million dollars for NY city schools.. and more importantly, sent the message out that you can complete anything you set your heart to.

I don't know why I'm being so cheesy, I'm just in a good mood!

Today's been such a strange day. I was at my desk this morning for about an hour before I headed to training which took the better part of the morning. Immediately afterwards I went home to walk China, then to another building on site to receive supplies. Now I'm finally back at my desk at around 2.. rambleramble.

Training was absolutely boring except for a 6 minute safety video where people kept falling over and over. I couldn't stop laughing at the actors losing their balance, flailing their arms, and keeling over. I can watch people falling all day long and never lose interest.

Took a few pictures from my hike yesterday at Tilden park with China.
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When we got home China slept and slept and slept.. and slept some more. I like the last picture.. her mouth is all wierd 'Scream' like, all distorted and misshapen.


Then from Halloween, yipee! Merima and me. She's one hot momma.
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