Happy pre-Labor day weekend everyone!

Right on cue, 2 days after riding, my thighs are completely sore. This morning I could barely get in and out of my truck and stairs are out of the question. I'm out of riding shape, but hopefully tomorrow morning and Monday I'll be able to see Isabella to get both her and I into some semblance of riding shape. Next week I'm starting a weekly Pilates class for 7 weeks.. woohoo..

Last night Travis and I watched the Video Music Awards. Walt and Merima soon joined and Amit stopped by as well.. I won't get into how lame the VMA's were, but it was really nice to hang out with everyone without having to *do* something.. relaxing at home with friends was a nice change of pace.

This weekend is slowly becomming overwhelming with too many things! I think I finally sold my stairclimber so now Walt will have no where to put his jacket when he comes over.. Ah well, trying to keep all the things I really want to do down to a minimum so Travis and I don't have to run around everywhere. On our first few dates when we would've had to rush to make a movie or whatever, we decided to just fuck-it and stay at home.. which was pretty nice. Hanging out with people equally as lazy as you are is a good thing.

It's Thursday..! Hooray! You know what that means.. tomorrow is Friday.. then the next day is the start of a 3 day weekend... yahooooooo... I have no plans for this weekend to get away other than relaxing and maybe doing a little touristy stuff. I want to make it out to this SF festival with food/music in Golden Gate Park. Travis has never been to Chinatown or to Fisherman's Wharf, so we might head over there sometime this weekend as well.

I'm exhausted this morning. My allergies were bothering me for the majority of the night and I kept waking up and having to blow my nose.. but it's so friggin dry in my room that nothing would come out. With the impending rain, my sinuses are having a freakin' party.. last night I was riding my horse with snot running down my nose. That was attractive. Just recently they shut off trail access to part of Mt. Diablo for riders and last night I discovered the Limeridge trail to be blocked off as well. Isabella was happy though.. woohoo, we get to turn around and go home!! Argh, it's frustrating though that more and more trail access is being limited. One of the reasons why I board 45 minutes away is because of the variety of trails available from Isabella's barn.

Being the masochist that I am, after riding I went to the Smokehouse and ordered the infamous Chili Cheese Fries. For those of you who remember, these caused massive havoc in my intestinal system a while back. Not much of an inconvenience for me, but more so for those of my friends who decided to hang around me that night. Ah well, not my problem.

I worked things out with the person I was ranting about yesterday. I don't like being angry or upset at people.. so I'm glad this person came forth and made ammends.

It takes more emotional effort and stress to be upset at someone than to coexist peacefully.

**

This morning there were two bomb explosions at Chiron, a nearby biopharmaceutical company who has had employees targeted by animal rights groups recently. Executives and employees, including lower-level employees with no influence in making research-based decisions were being harassed.. uhm. Yikes.

A conversation with Walt (wjquestus) on AIM, it's long.. but it amused me:

wjquestus: wake up!
Akasha1557: YO!
wjquestus: yo!
Akasha1557: I'm watching sport's illustrated swimsuit issue on Spike TV
Akasha1557: you should watch
Akasha1557: hot babes
wjquestus: no spike TV :-(
Akasha1557: ahhh
Akasha1557: SUCKS!
wjquestus: ass
Akasha1557: suckass
wjquestus: ass
wjquestus: suck
wjquestus: fuck
wjquestus: balls
Akasha1557: i think i'm going to sleep soon cuz i'm tired
Akasha1557: cock balls
wjquestus: okay
wjquestus: sweet Travis dreams
Akasha1557: you said okay to cock balls
Akasha1557: you are gay!
wjquestus: I ALWAYS say okay to cock balls
Akasha1557: haha!
Akasha1557: me too
wjquestus: I am feeling quite chipper today...
Akasha1557: oh yeah?
Akasha1557: did you get some?
wjquestus: nah - no chicks here - darn!
Akasha1557: at least you have Palmella
Akasha1557: did you talk to merima?
wjquestus: for a bit - she's going to LA this weekend
Akasha1557: yeah. see her sis
Akasha1557: traffic will be horrible!!
wjquestus: and we're shopping and having dinner tomorrow
Akasha1557: sushi?
wjquestus: I know! I warned her to be careful - I'm such a dad
Akasha1557: raj is cowboy dad. call him that
wjquestus: hmm...we didn't get that far
Akasha1557: i want sushi. cockballs
wjquestus: cockballs
wjquestus: cockballs
wjquestus: cockballs
wjquestus: cockballs...mmmm good!
Akasha1557: eat my cockballs
wjquestus: ha ha ha!
Akasha1557: I'd like the cockball imperial roll please
wjquestus: with extra ball
Akasha1557: or the cockball handroll
wjquestus: and extra cock
Akasha1557: cockball with unagi roll please
wjquestus: ha ha ha
wjquestus: cockballs
Akasha1557: I'd like fries with cockballs and cheese
Akasha1557: on top
Akasha1557: not mixed in
wjquestus: must be stirred
Akasha1557: i like it placed carefully on the top
Akasha1557: i'll mix it all in my mouth when I eat it
wjquestus: they should have cockball sticks instead of swizzle sticks
Akasha1557: werd
Akasha1557: omg. speaking of mixed up food
wjquestus: mmmm...I love to mix it all in my mouth when I eat it
wjquestus: food?
Akasha1557: when travis and i go to a breakfast place, he mixes up his whole plate.. the egg, sausage, hashbrowns
Akasha1557: until it looks like vomit
Akasha1557: and he eats it
Akasha1557: oh yeah, he puts tabasco all over it first
Akasha1557: and cockballs
Akasha1557: oh yeah, and gravy
Akasha1557: but more cockballs than gravy
wjquestus: that's hilarious!
wjquestus: he's the antithesis of people who don't like their different food to touch each other
Akasha1557: yeah, he mashes up so gross!!
Akasha1557: he takes a big spoon and mixes it up all together like he's mixing a cauldron
wjquestus: at least you don't chew the food for him first and then vomit it back into his mouth
wjquestus: that would be uncooth
wjquestus: I think he just likes to impress you
Akasha1557: yes, vomit does impress me.
Akasha1557: i have to say
Akasha1557: i'm gonna save some of our conversation and post it on my website
Akasha1557: cuz its funny
wjquestus: especially the cock balls section

This quiz is stupid.. but I like the picture..


You hate terrorists!


What type of people do you despise?
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< rant >

It pisses me off when someone you barely know or talk to jumps to conclusions and makes unfounded rude remarks about your personal affects. Without pausing a moment and gathering the knowledge to make a conclusion, he instead decides to make an insulting comment towards a loved one's family member without any forethought of how his words might be taken. Now, I would understand if there were friction between this person and I, but as far as I know, there has, er HAD always been a sense of amiability between us.

Think before you speak, people. Especially when you're talking to the public about your fiance's family member. I'm all for random meanness to strangers, but being rude to a potential family member without warrant is stupid.

< /rant >

Anyhoo, Thailand trip will be postponed for another time. With this truck repair bill on my end and with Travis buying a new car, funds are limited this year so even with the $100,000 SARS reward, Thailand is just too expensive. I was thinking maybe a Hawaii trip through the really cheap deals over at Suntrips, but when you add the cost up of daily expenses and buying stuff, it might just add up to about the same. Camping may just be in our future..

I was looking at that website at the different birth controls and it looks like Ortho-Evra might be a good possibility for me! I have an appointment with my new physician next Tuesday, so hopefully I'll be switched over in the next month or so. Yay!

YO! If I had you on my yahoo messenger, you're probably deleted.. FOREVER!! Send me your yahoo ID please so I can add you. yahoo: yoinkminenow

I'm taking several steps to try and combat this once-a-month breakdown episode. The first is to quit the pill I'm on. A while ago, Travis sent me this article that among other things, related a link from depression to oral birth control. Looking at the big picture, I see a correlation between when I first started really being down to when I started on my current birth control, Yasmin. So I called up my new doctor and made an appointment to see her about alternative means of contraception.

I'm having gynecological issues.

During my last year in college, I took a bacteriology course that had a corresponding lab class. This was by far one of my favorite classes taken in college. Growing stuff. Gross stuff. One of the exercises we had to do was swab our anuses for culture to see which bacterial strains would develop. At first I was mortified and felt a sense of violation on my privacy. I had no intention on sharing my butt flora with 25 other strangers in lab. But personal curiosity took over and I went and did the deed. Swabbed my anus, swabbed the agar plate. Left in incubator a few nights to see which butt bugs developed.

The human body is fascinating to me. The fact that you can grow up cells from your anus into a beautiful collage of different colors and tastes, er, textures, was one of the experiments I will always remember fondly.

Pictures taken a few weekends ago when Lizette, Mark, and mom visited are finally up!

Garnet!
Garnet is believed to have magical properties- such
as preventing skin diseases; assuring the
wearer of love, faithfulness, & safety from
wounds; protecting the wearer from evil &
terrifying dreams! You need this stone.


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I didn't sleep well last night.. it was hot and I woke up about 6-7 times for various reasons. Went pee twice and from awful disturbing nightmares.

I can't remember the last time I had a nightmare before this past weekend, but for the past 2 evenings, they've been vivid enough to recall in the morning. The one I had Saturday night was another water nightmare. I've had reoccuring dreams all my life about the tide coming in with no means of escape. Or general flooding dreams, which this one was.

Last night was filled with dreams from this movie that we rented. I didn't really think it was particularly scary or inventive. The grotesque scenes weren't even that shocking to me.. but the images must've stayed in my mind because I had nightmares all last night. I would wake up to go to the bathroom and recall the disturbing thoughts of my sleep.. so I would come back to bed, try to get close to Travis.. and stay up, wondering why I was affected by the movie enough to have dreams about it.

This weekend was rough for me. Saturday I was encapsulated in this overwhelming sense of insecurity and sadness. I'm sure PMS had something to do with it, but I couldn't understand what the root cause of it all was. I have some ideas.. but trying to express why when I wasn't sure was frustrating. Especially for Travis.. who was so sweet by trying to help and understand.. he expressed his sympathy as best he could. He held and kissed me for a while which was very comforting.. but then we both had things to do.. I got up soon after and went to see Isabella for a while then walked around by myself and went shopping. I needed to be alone and reset myself. Last month I had a mini breakdown as well.. definitely sensing a trend here, I don't want to go through that again next month.

So tonight I see my therapist. I really don't want to.. I saw him 3 weeks ago and I think we've come to a plateau as far as how much more he can help me. Plus, without understanding my feelings, how am I to talk to him for him to help me? Argh. I don't want to go tonight.

Hmm.. so many negatives in this post so I'll end with postiive happy notes. I got my belly button pierced! Friday after work I decided to go ahead and do it. Merima also decided to bite the bullet and get her tattoo work started.. a huge dragon across her back which looks amazing. Yesterday Travis and I went to the dog park and he had the maiden voyage of his pirate ship kite which went up easily. I can't wait to get my stunt kite up and flying next time we're out there!

OH GOD!! So many strange things to write about.

Last night I had a dream I was taking care of two little dogs while their owner was gone. I let them outside of the apartment to go to the bathroom, and they both wandered over to the parking lot. One of them just sniffed around the premises, around the garbage bin.. investigating. The other squatted in someone's parking space and proceeded to take the most massive dump I've never seen a dog take. I went inside.. normal poopy bags would not take care of this mess. I donned my latex gloves and brought out several big plastic grocery bags we usually save and started scooping the poo into the bags with my hands. I even recall taking a larger bag I recieved from Osh Hardware when purchasing my gardening tools last week to receive the awesome amount of shit.

When walking back to my apartment, I noticed bags of California Natural dog food (China's brand) sitting everywhere. I contemplated which one I would steal for her. I know I have to get more dog food for China, but the way it showed up in my dream was just odd.

Then another dream. I was in my building at work and this gal I used to go to college with, Hai-Nhu, was there. She was having some sort of physical breakdown because she was breathing hard and sweating, barely coherent of the crowd that had surrounded her. I approach her and recognize her, and I'm all, "Hey! Hai Nhu...!! How's it going? It's Julienne, remember me from college?" How dorky can I be in my dreams??

This morning I saw my first commercial of Arny discussing why you should vote for him for California governor. I am *so* voting for him. "I vill weerk fer you. I vill be da pee-pul's govenoh." Fuck yeah!

And now. The story I was hesitant to bring up here. Just because its so absolutely gross. But I got to thinking... you know, I'm a gross person anyway.. so you might as well accept me for who I am. Damnit.

**

I'm driving to Walnut Creek to ride my horse last night after work. The power is out in most of the east bay which includes the street lights. This caused massive traffic backups from city streets onto the highways. It took me 45 minutes to drive up to Walnut Creek in normal commute traffic. After I got to my exit ramp, I sat for another 20 minutes. Not moving!! Although I had emptied my bladder right before my drive, I felt the urgency to urinate creep up on me once again. Now when I have to pee, I don't receive a small signal to my brain like most people do. I receive "HOLYSHIT THIS IS YOUR BLADDER AND YOU BETTER EMPTY ME OR I'M GONNA EXPLODE AND CAUSE SEPSIS AND YOU WILL DIE!!" So naturally, I listen. But I couldn't this time. I called Travis in desperation.. not that he could do anything about it, but I had to share my ordeal with someone who would understand.. well, he'd probably laugh, but still. He wasn't there.

I quickly assesed the situation. Loose pants, a box of Kleenex, several paper towels, a tampon, a cup of water, a bottle of water, a plastic bag, a jacket. Traffic wasn't moving at all. I'm in my truck so people can't see what I'm doing. So, ladies and gentlemen, I peed. I tested the absorbancy of paper towels, Kleenex, and that tampon, being careful not to overshoot and cause a big pee mess. It soon became clear that the amount of pee I had contained far surpassed the capable absorbancies of disposable cloth, so I resorted to the cup. Now let me tell you, the body rejects the notion of peeing anywhere besides the bathroom and the great outdoors. So being able to let loose was a feat upon itself. I had to overcome my brain's objection to such an abnormal situation. I had to relax. I filled barely even 1/4 of the cup and my body stopped. It refused to allow any more pee to be released, even though the urgency was still there. By this time, traffic was moving along, albeit slowly.

Finally, I got to the barn. I rushed into the bathroom with all offending pee-drenched material and disposed of it all. I washed my hands thoroughly in scalding water. Then I peed. I peed for like 5 minutes like guys do. And let me tell ya, when you first let out that pee, it feels almost as good as an orgasm. I can now see where the concept of watersports comes from. Don't worry I'm not into that.

Ahh.. so that was my ordeal. I'm not sure how I get into these kinds of situations. Although it wasn't as good as the time I got locked in the women's restroom at work and had to crawl underneath the door. That was pretty gross also.

**

Anyways, in more "normal" news, my truck is in the shop getting its AC fixed. over $800 friggen dollars in repairs. Fucking sucks ass.

You're a Faerie!! Small and delicate.. and can be
rather nasty as well... You love to play games
on the big folk... Magic is your favourite way
of tricking people... And sometimes.. when they
aren't looking, you remove that very important
letter from their pocket.


What Fantasy Race Are You?
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Last night my sleep was filled with dreams.. it felt like something out of film noir, full of angst and alienation.

The most vivid of the dreams I recall took place at my old mansion home. I was home with my parents, who were preparing to leave for the evening. When we lived at this house, every weekend my parents would get dressed up for the evening and attend formal parties their friends held. The dream was filled with feelings of abandonment, being left behind.. not knowing when they were to return. I remember feeling desperation.. feeling no control over keeping my loved ones nearby.

The dream then switched to an apartment overlooking Telegraph, a busy college street near UC Berkeley. I was on a rickity old balconey which felt and looked as if it were ready to collapse. All around me, people were enjoying themselves in festivities. Off in the distance, a ferris wheel spun slowly, emanating its glowing carnival lights over the city. Life was bustling and moving forward around me.. but I felt sorrow.. not only because I wasn't joining in the fun, but because I felt like I was self-inflicting my isolation, and I was angry at myself for allowing that to happen.

Usually my dreams aren't so relfective of real life.. but I know why these dreams came to me. One of my biggest fears is that my own feelings of self-inadequacy will drive off those that are closest around me.

Sometimes I want to scream at myself for self-depricating thoughts that enter my mind. My self-confidence this year has improved to a point where I'm confused when I start thinking negatively. I think of all my great qualities, the wonderful friends I have, and a sweet soul who loves me, but I can't stop these thoughts from entering my mind when I'm feeling vulnerable.

But I try to think of it as the next step.. combating these negativities. Thinking logically. Taking a step back and observing my thoughts from an objective point of view. My next goal of self-improvement will be to recognize these errant thoughts that invade my brain and to dismiss them without a trace without feeling the need to express them in any way.. which right now is negatively, and a way I can't feel any control over.

Yeaaah.. I found that Frankenstein arthritis commercial I mentioned the other day. I thought in my hazy morning state it was a dream.. but now I know it wasn't! (must have QuickTime to view) Funny shit.

Your medieval name is: Gweneveire. You are
innocent, quiet, beautiful and angelic. You
harbor an inner beauty and you usually keep to
yourself, following the lines of conformity.
You're totally innocent and loyal.


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I'm sure it's no big surprise to you that your
romance is The Princess Bride. A heartwarming
tale of "Twue Wuve" that has giants,
Spainards and swashbuckling. You really do
think that love can overcome anything. You may
be a touch naive but your heart is certainly in
the right place. You've probably got one of
those relationships where proper nouns have
been replaced with "Snookums" and
"Pookie Pie". Eww. Beware a cuteness
overload.


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You are quite dirty minded, and a lot of things, no
matter how innocent send you mind in the wrong
direction.. although, it is most likely that
you will not act on your thoughts..


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Tonight I participate in another focus group. It takes place in Mountain View at Motorola this evening at 6pm.. and I get $75 for an hour of my time, woohoo!

I'm getting to love participating in focus groups. I mean, getting paid for giving your opinions is just awesome. I'd like to think I have mass media mentality, as in, I'm easily influenced by what big companies say to me.. so I'm a perfect candidate for giving marketing direction. Of course, when I watch commercials I have that little voice in my head that says, "Julienne, you must not listen to the advertisements, you really do not need foot fungal medication." But then a bigger voice in my head says, "But Julienne, just in case you do need foot fungal medication, this one would be perfect for you!". Then both heads nod and agree. Mm-hmm, yes, that is right.

MUhahahaha

Not much to report on the life front. Work is work.. I read about 400 pages of Harry Potter in the last few days and finished it yesterday. This latest installment wasn't as gripping and well tied together at the end as the last few books, but I enjoyed it nonetheless. I borrowed Travis's copy of Me Talk Pretty One Day by David Sedaris since I had been hearing so many raves about it.

So all in all, my life is pretty uneventful right now. Merima's an awesome roommate and China's still making solid poops. Travis bought me a lovely silver ring when we wandered around the Ashby flea market on Sunday morning. I was so proud of him for bargaining ! *sniff* I don't know quite how to describe him.. describing seems to trivialize how I feel about him.. but he's fun, sweet, and considerate. I mean, any guy that will spend 15 minutes examining different lipstick choices with me at the drugstore gets double bonus points! Hooray! I'm usually asleep by the time he walks out of the door for his commute to work, but in my fuzzy sleep state, he looks so incredibly handsome when he's all dolled up for work. I'm the luckiest girl in the world.. hooray!

Hmm.. last night I finished 2 out of the 4 chores I listed yesterday. Not bad. The kitchen I left because I was getting sick of washing dishes, and the sweeping I left out because I was lazy. Instead I read my Harry Potter book and dyed my hair dark blue. It's a stark contrast to the pink.. for one thing, the pink was washing out and revealing the drab bleached orange hair underneath. I think pink really brightened up my face.. it was more like an accessory. The blue is very dark and makes all of my features really stand out. Travis says it brings out my eyes quite a bit. I'm a goth chick!

If anyone knows where I can get a screensaver from 'The Shining' with type scrolling across the screen: "All work and no play makes Jack a dull boy", let me know. I was looking all over for it yesterday!

This morning I put Tiger Balm on my cleavage because I didn't want to get sweaty there. I'm not sure what my brain's logic in this was, but now my chest is burning icy-hot! I'm retarded.

So many chores to do tonight.. sweep, vaccuum, clean kitchen, do laundry. China has been shedding like crazy so each day I collect about 5 pounds of hair from her. At least I'm finding that she does this complete shedding thing once a year. I have lots of pictures to post from this weekend.. stay tuned for them later tonight. Doh, another thing to do tonight. DOH!!

Busy crazy weekend! Saturday and Sunday were jam-packed with stuff to do and get done which made this weekend go by way too quickly. It was very tiring, but fun and satisfying.

Saturday morning I went for a long trail ride with my friend Sharon out at the barn. She was riding a friend's horse who was acting up a bit. Those huge horseflies are back out patrolling the trails once again and one landed on her horse a few times. It was a little frightening because she would begin to bunch up and start bucking once the horsefly began to bite.. and I'd have to ride Isabella right on her haunch, risking getting kicked to try and shoe the horsefly away.

We rode around 10am in the morning, but by the time we got back a few hours later, the temperature in Walnut Creek had soared easily into the 90s, wiping me out on the drive home (still don't have AC in my truck, which will take $800 to repair). Fortunately Travis postponed disassembling and moving his exercise equipment which was located in Fremont (and was most likely in the triple digit heat), so we were able to relax for a few hours before Mark, Lizette, and my mom arrived.

Once my brother unpacked for his upcoming year at Cal, we all headed to my apartment where Travis prepared an incredible meal of homemade country fried steak, rosemary potatoes, and a peanut butter/chocolate mud pie. Merima helped as well and made some yummy squash. We vegged out for a few hours, watching a few movies before everyone conked out.

The next morning, we went to the Homemade Cafe for breakfast.. the one and only place for YUMMY YUMMY breakfast foods. After breakfast and saying all of our goodbyes, we headed over to Lake Chabot for Krissy's BBQ picnic. We played quite a bit of frisbee, and China peed in the lake again.

I tried to tire out Travis by making him run for errant frisbee throws and falling fast asleep on his lap that night after we got home, but alas, his testosterone driven urge to see Freddy vs Jason was too strong and he woke me up, ready and eager for gore. For what it was, the movie did well in delivering the hacker slasher and naked bewbies fix. I jumped a few times, but didn't scream amazingly enough. Although I did make Travis sit on the aisle.. just in case...

It's amusing what one says in the wee hours of the night in conversation.

Last night Travis and I were lying in bed chatting. Our first topic of conversation was whether the blackouts on the east coast were due to terrorist attacks. It was around 1am. Being my typical self, I interrupted the conversation asking him if he thought I should take my tongue ring out. It had been irritating the bottom of my tongue the past few days. The conversation reached a pleasant silence while I was contemplating the pros and cons of taking my stud out.

Then Travis intercedes:

"You know, if you got a half-skeleton tattooed on you, the people at the tattoo parlor would have no choice but to tattoo a demon and a vampire next to that tattoo."

Me, perplexed. "What?"

"The half-skeleton.. they would tattoo a demon and a vampire next to it."

"Oh.. okaaaay." Wondering if I missed something.

Silence..

"Yeaahh.. I don't know what I just said. What did I say?"

Me, "You don't know what you said?"

Travis, "Not really."

We got a good giggle out of that, especially considering he felt the need to clarify himself after I went, HUHHH??

We had a good little dinner party last night with a few people over. After dinner we watched 'Old School' which was cute and funny.. and tonight, in return for dragging Travis to see Norah Jones, I have to experience Freddy vs Jason. Joy! They should just pass out Depends at the door for the ones like me who piss in their pants at anything scary.

Bah! I'm going to the beach with China instead.

You are most like: Audrey Hepburn. You are free-
spirited and exotic. The world is your oyster.
You have no regrets and probabley never will.


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Today I go to an A's game sponsored by my company. Then we have a potluck to celebrate Merima's apartment warming. The wrath of my stomach illness is not over as I was experiencing more cramping last night.. an excessive amount of gas produced by Travis's butt confirms that it was probably something we ate. Must run!

I'm happy to say my stint in the explosive diarrhea world is over. Let me just say I am amazed at the speed liquid poo can projectile out of a hole the size of your pinky. I honestly think it was the Indian food that I had on Monday evening.. as good as it was, I think there were families of e.coli floating around in the Chicken Makhana (sp?). The good news is I feel cleansed. As if all the bad bacteria in my body has been flushed out. I am rejuvenated, hooray!

Last night, Isabella and I went for a long ride out on the trail. I just found out a second friend of mine, Amit, has contracted chicken pox! What's up with that.. I was incredulous. Later on in an unrelated event, I almost fell off Isabella because a group of 20 joggers rounded a corner, chatting up a storm. She thought they were all going to converge on her and eat her. I was amazed I stayed on considering I was riding bareback and how round and portly she's gotten. I'm out of riding shape.. I rode for almost 2 hours yesterday and today I am suffering the consequences. My inner thighs! They burn when I walk!

Anyhow, just a splash of random thoughts for you all today. I (heart) Travis.

I Am A: Neutral Good Half-Elf Ranger Bard


Alignment:
Neutral Good characters believe in the power of good above all else. They will work to make the world a better place, and will do whatever is necessary to bring that about, whether it goes for or against whatever is considered 'normal'.


Race:
Half-Elves are a cross between a human and an elf. They are smaller, like their elven ancestors, but have a much shorter lifespan. They are sometimes looked down upon as half-breeds, but this is rare. They have both the curious drive of humans and the patience of elves.


Primary Class:
Rangers are the defenders of nature and the elements. They are in tune with the Earth, and work to keep it safe and healthy.


Secondary Class:
Bards are the entertainers. They sing, dance, and play instruments to make other people happy, and, frequently, make money. They also tend to dabble in magic a bit.


Deity:
Mielikki is the Neutral Good goddess of the forest and autumn. She is also known as the Lady of the Forest, and is the Patron of Rangers. Her followers are devoted to nature, and believe in the positive and outreaching elements of it. They use light armor, and a variety of weapons suitable for hunting, which they are quite skilled at. Mielikki's symbol is a unicorn head.


Find out What D&D Character Are You?, courtesy ofNeppyMan (e-mail)

Yarg, my stomach is finally settling down. This morning I woke up and it felt like my innards were dying. After a few trips to the restroom, here and at work, I think my colon is pretty much emptied. I'm wondering if its the Indian food that Travis and I had last night.. sometimes they let those dishes sit and simmer.. especially when they have lunch buffets during the day. Who knows how old that food was. Lord knows I'm never going back to that restaurant again! I was afraid to even take China on her morning walk for fear I'd have to make a side trip into someone's yard. That would've sucked.

One of the things we did this past weekend with my sister and mom was to visit the Redondo Beach Pier. One of the places I wanted to visit was the small kite shop they have on the pier.. they always have a good selection of colorful large kites for sale. Travis bought me this dual control stunt kite with a cute gecko design which I'm nervous about trying because I'm afraid I might be too retarded to fly, and he bought himself a really cool looking pirate ship kite. This weekend hopefully we'll get a chance to take them out to the Berkeley Marina and try them out.

Time to get to work. Wish my butt luck.. I don't know what it is with me and China and our colonic troubles..

So sad.. help them find their puppy! Especially if you're in California..

It's Monday and it's friggin hotter than heck!!

This past weekend, Travis and I traveled down to southern California to visit the family. Although they were driving up this weekend to drop off Mark for his 2nd year at Cal, I thought it would be nice to take a little road trip, relax by the pool, and eat good homecooked meals by Mom.

Two things which should have made me rethink this plan of mine.
1. My truck's AC is broken.
2. It's summertime. Central California is HOT!!!

The drive down wasn't so bad. I was complaining it stayed around 80 degrees throughout the late evening ride. Nothing prepared me for what it would be like 3pm on Sunday when we decided to drive back. LA traffic combined with temperature *WELL INTO* the triple digits made for a very uncomfortable ride. The normal 6 hour drive took us about 7 1/2 hours in sweltering heat. Did I mention my AC is broken?

This morning I called the mechanic to get my AC fixed.

Friday I didn't write because I was feeling crappy. The anxiety of China not feeling well and the upcoming trip left my nerves frazzled and I was just distraught at all the possible reasons why my pup could be sick (damn you, internet, for feeding my mind with horrid, evil thoughts). After shooting an e-mail to Travis telling him I needed his attention because I wasn't feeling great, I came home and rested on the couch. My sweet guy came home soon after and covered me with kisses.. he puts up with a lot from me..

After a weekend of watery rice and boiled chicken, China's poops are back to normal. Hooray!

Travis's rules for watching a movie at the Parkway Theater:

Get there way early so's you can get a couch. Way more comfy, and if you get the right one, you could easily give/receive a handjob on the sly during the flick.

Watching people eat pizza when they ran out of what you wanted sucks. Order a whole pizza.

Get a pitcher of beer.

Kick the fuckin' nerd who's crowding your space without the slightest hint of consideration in the spine.

The owner guys or whoever that do all the talky talk before the previews are botarded. Go use the bathroom at this point.

Last night, Travis and I went to go see 28 Days Later at the Parkway theater in Oakland. Let me just say, this was one of the scariest movies I've ever seen.. and Travis, who is a scary movie afficionado, thought the same. I barely saw any of the scary scenes as my eyes were covered.. and when I would peek through my fingers, I could do nothing more than yell out "OH GOD!!" at the horrifying scene and cover my eyes again. Yes, it's that scary. And if you watch it, stay until after the credits.. there is an alternate ending.

China Vagina woke me up again at 3am this morning to urgently have to go to the bathroom. I don't know what the fuck she is eating, but it is not agreeing with her stomach. I think its time to work in yogurt with her diet again.

Arny is running for governer! Anyone who can flounce around in a little crotch strap fighting warlords and save us from machines trying to destroy mankind will get my vote! I would do it just to be able to hear him talk when he gives speaches. Unless Feinstein runs, then I'll vote for her. Or Gary Coleman.. he needs a job. Heck, I dunno.

Ugh, at this moment it feels as if my uterus has become a seperate entity and is trying to escape from my body by ripping through my pelvis. Yes.. it's that time again. My cramps aren't usually this bad.. I guess I am blessed this month.

Late last night I was lying in bed reading my Harry Potter book. I was nice and relaxed.. my air purifier was humming away, drowning out any background apartment noise. It's about 12:15am. Suddenly I hear the bass thumping loudly through the wall from my neighbor's. This is the same neighbor that plays crazy techno music at 6am in the mornings. This is the same neighbor that has an ass so big it should have its own zip code. So I bang three times on the wall. Shut the fuck up, bitch! No response. I wait maybe 10 minutes.. maybe they're doing the horizontal samba and they'll stop soon. No luck, so I bang on the wall again. THUMPTHUMPTHUMP! At this point I was getting a little pissed. What if I had to sleep right now? What if I had to get up early in the morning? So I busted out the markers and paper.

I wrote in *big* red letters on a huge piece of paper. Ya know, for the humiliation factor from other neighbors who might see the note as well.

Please be considerate of your neighbors and keep your music down in the early and late hours of the day!!!

Keep in mind this is the second time I've had to write to them. The first note was effective for about 3 weeks.. then the music started back up again. I don't know what they were thinking.. maybe that somehow I had 'forgotten' about the music and maybe it was okay to play it back up again? I don't know but they're idiots.

This morning I left the house about 8:15am to walk China and the note was gone. Muhaha. I'm trying to decide what my next course of action would be lest there be no heed to my word. I can go the practical-make-life-miserable-for-them route which would be fun to do.. or I could just complain to the apartment manager.. decisions decisions..

I am Kong. Strong and passionate, I tend to be misunderstood, sometimes even feared. I don't want to fight, I don't want to cause trouble, all I ask is a little love, and a little peace. If I don't get what I want, I get angry, and throw barrels and flaming oil at whatever's stopping me. What Video Game Character Are You?

Happy 24th birthday, Lizette!!

Well, it's official. I think I'm officially sick. But I'm doing my dangest to fight this bugger off. I've been trying to drink lots of tea to flush fluids through me, and keeping my energy level up and running.. to try not to drag myself down into a sick stupor. I took some cold medicine last night to help me sleep through the night and when I woke up this morning I blew out this big chunk of snot out my nose. It came out with violent projectile force. Very cool.. I love it when that happens. So satisfying.

My period is coming.. it's the calm before the storm.

After work I went to go see my therapist. My sessions have gone from weekly to every other week and at this point I think I'm at a standstill in my progress with him. He's done quite a lot for me.. he's made me re-evaluate my negative thought processes and to recognize when I'm going into a self-destructive pattern. I'm thinking about further spacing out my sessions to see how I will do on my own. Last year was by far the most challenging I've been through.. but I managed to survive and this year things have just been positive and satisfying.

Travis now lives less than 5 minutes driving distance from me! It feels a little odd because now I can stalk him so much easier.. MUHAHAHA. I KNOW WHERE YOU LIVE BOYEE!!

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This weekend was quiet and pleasant... mostly errands and moving Travis into his new apartment (5 minutes away, woohoo!). Last night I had a big allergy attack (ran out of Zyrtec 2 days ago) and I popped a bunch of pills. Two Tylenol Allergy pills and a Claritin from Jon, Merima's guy who is visiting, then another two Alka Seltzer Cold tablets. When I'm feeling crappy, I like to eat as many chemicals as possible to make myself pass out as soon as possible.

This morning I'm feeling pretty loopy.. I'm not sure if its because of all the pills or if my allergy attack was something more like the flu or a cold. Or maybe SARS.

My mind is a little fuzzy and full of incoherent thoughts.. I feel deliciously happy to have spent this weekend with such an awesome boy.. time to work now.

I saw this TV this morning for joint stiffness with Frankenstein in it. It was funny.

Whenever I eat a lollipop I have to *FORCE* myself to not bite down and eat it all in 5 seconds. Patience, my dear. Patience.


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Last night Travis, Merima, and I were in major veg-out mode. Merima made us broccoli basil garlic pasta with cream of broccoli sauce and turkey hot dogs (was so friggin good!) and we watched 'The Full Monty'. Can you believe that came out 6 years ago? Damn, we're all getting old.

After the movie, Travis and I retired to the bedroom. We were messing around the computer and just talking.. and Travis proposed we get stoned since a certain sibling (a href purposely left out) left some herbacious goodness under my custody. I had about 2 hits and I was good and toasted and Travis took a few hits as well. We did the rest of our quizzes, took our shower, then snuggled up to talk for a while.. we fell asleep at 11:30pm. I woke up with a start at 1am and exclaimed, "We didn't have sex yet!!" Travis, woken up from his slumber yells out groggily, "OH CRAP!" then being all smarmy he says, "We can fix that.." and we both promptly fell asleep again without doing anything.

I remembered that this morning and giggled to myself for a while.

Hooray for Friday! Travis moves to Berkeley today! Tomorrow evening we're going to go see Norah Jones in concert! (in exchange for draggin Travis to this concert, he's making me see Freddy vs. Jason, gag) So many good things happening this weekend.. then next weekend we travel down south to visit Mom/Lizette/Mark. The weekend after Mom and Mark drive up here for the start of Mark's school year. It'll be good to have him close by again. When Mom visits, we're taking a trip to the House of Prime Rib, BABY!!!