I'm getting really sick of how long the post is of my tongue ring. The bottom ball is irritating the underside of my tongue because its so long. I can get it changed in a few days but my tongue is still swollen around the ring so I have to wait until all that swelling goes down or else it'll swell all up again with a new post in there. There is also a little bit of yellowish pus coming out of both openings which I try and clean up but apparently this is normal. I'm supposed to be checking the post every so often to make sure the balls are on tight but I've been afraid to touch it because I don't want to infect my mouth. I drool a lot and I'm getting really annoyed at how dorky I talk with my stupid lisp. My mouth isn't all that big to begin with and with a 1" long metal stud in there it really impedes my talking and eating. I've been making up for it by eating really bad (ice cream) and being grumpy.

Insert PMS rant here:

I've had two more "dates" during the week and frankly I'm getting kind of sick of it. Meeting people is just fine.. but having to talk, make conversation is really raking on my nerves. Especially with my tongue all fucked up - talking doesn't make it any better. In fact, it makes it quite sore. This weekend I'm looking forward to not talking and just chilling at home.

Bob told me my new PS2 has arrived at the house so I'll pick it up from him tonight.. I'm looking forward to a nice evening of riding Isabella with a few friends from the barn.. and tonight I'm just going to sit at home and not talk. :)

Tuesday night I saw a young musician from San Francisco.. very cute, very tall. He plays the guitar extremely well and was easy to converse with and I had a pretty good time with him. However, his heart has been broken so he's not prepared for a full-on relationship (hmm.. now that's a first). Last night I went to dinner with a handsome half-Japanese, half-white boy from Berkeley. He was easy to talk to as well and I think he was very interested in me. He's left handed.. and when we went to give each other a goodnight hug we did this awkward - which way does my head go - type thing.. have you noticed that often happens with left-handers? I thought it was pretty amusing.

I heard from the guy I had such a good date with on Sunday last night.. he was exhausted with the project he's been working on this week, staying at work anywhere from 11pm to 3am in the morning trying to finish. He tells me this weekend he'll be working on and off of work and his parents are going to be in town.. so I'm not sure when we're to meet up again. Perhaps the weekend after.

.. and Indiana guy.. I really like him a lot.. but I think I freaked him out last night when I talked with him. I'm just thinking to myself.. what am I getting myself into with all of this? Another year of frustration and self-doubt as I wonder when we can be together? Part of me says I have to give it a chance.. to see if we were meant to be together.. but another part - the self-preservation part says to keep myself from all the potential heart-ache and pain a long distance relationship can cause. Bad memories from my first boyfriend.

Haha, stupid science jokes:

Two hydrogens are walking along a street. The first one says, "Hey! I think I lost an electron!" The second one replies, "Are you sure?" The first one then says, "Yeah, I'm POSITIVE.

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Date: Thu Aug 29 09:55:04 2002


I had a great time last night. You're beautiful, and I hope to see you again.

I am sorry I left without saying good bye. I left you sleeping as I went off to work, and I couldn't find the right words to say. Maybe at times like that, it's best not to say anything.

And I'm really sorry for the smell I left in the bathroom. There was no window to open, and rather then let it waft throughout the house, I just closed the door. I wish there was an air freshner; I feel bad that it will still be lingering when you go to brush your teeth. I should have just left my heart behind, and not the smell of yesterday's beef stroganov.


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Went to Barney's with my coworkers.. bad idea. Tongue is very very sore now even though I only ate about 1/4 of my food... I'm icing it down right now.

So yesterday I "wasn't feeling well" and stayed home from work. Actually my tongue was so swollen I didn't want to go to work only to lisp and spit on everyone. The tongue piercing wasn't bad at all. The first day I was afraid to even move it around for fear I'd jab it and cause excruciating pain in my mouth.. but fortunately there aren't too many nerves in there so pain was minimal. Worse case scenario I had some demerol left over from pulling my wisdom teeth out so I figured I could pop a few of those if it got bad.. but it never did.

I had a good time yesterday. I laid out by the pool, relaxed, got a little burnt. My roommate was there with her boyfriend and after he went back to work she asked if I wanted to get a drink at the local bar. I thought.. hey, why not.. I should try something new. So we went to this bar.. with old drunk men sitting around. I didn't feel comfortable at all.. I got that awful gut feeling that I get when I don't belong somewhere.. so I went grocery shopping at a nearby market. I came back and the bar was now packed.. who goes drinking at 6pm on a Tuesday night?? Oh yeah, me. :P So I told my roommate I wanted to leave and drove her car home, leaving her to converse with the drunkards. When I picked her up, she was totally tanked and obnoxious. She really wanted to get some Chinese food and I watched her in her drunken stupor try and order some Broccoli beef and rice. It was entertaining and I didn't help.

Monday I was pretty bummed. The guy I went on such a nice date with hasn't called or emailed me back. *sigh* He did tell me during the date on Sunday that he had a huge project coming in this week and it would be quite stressful. Oh well, I'm not holding my breath on him calling me anymore. That evening I spoke on the phone with the boy from Indiana I've been enamored with... and completely forgot about my worries with the other guys. Talking with him feels so natural, I can be the complete gross nasty perverted dork that I am and he seems to like that. :) Plus, he shoots it right back at me.. I really like him.. a lot.. but poo poo on being in Indiana!

Tomorrow evening I was invited out to dinner by another guy I had been talking to online for a bit. He seems to be very friendly and low key.. so I'm looking forward to meeting him. He's half asian, half caucasian.. and he works with disadvantaged kids for the university.

Last night I had a talk with the *other* gal roommate I have about guys and relationships. She's pining for a guy she met in Vegas who lives in Los Angeles. She seems to have really fallen for him and he doesn't seem to want a relationship at this point in his life because he's busy with school and his work (hmm.. sounds quite familiar). She's a complete party girl.. I just found out she's half-Korean which is kind of cool. We were gabbing about guys and how she has been searching for the past 2 years for "the one". She told me how many guys she had been with and I was completely floored. We're talking 100+.. whoooooaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!

A few more cam pics... and an extra hole. ;)

I can't believe I left out the best part of my story..

After Nice Guy and I drove back to his place after sightseeing in SF, we went inside and I asked to use his restroom. I look down and the zipper to my jeans is WIDE open. Open like.. you can tell what color undies I was wearing, OPEN. I laugh to myself, do my business, and when I walk back out I ask him how long I was walking around with my AC on. He claims he didn't notice and would've hinted nicely if he had.. hmm.. I guess I'll never know.

My choice for the Big Brother office poll: Hottie, hottie Roddy.

Oh boy, juicy insight into my weekend for you all today. (Alright, my next door cube mate is eating something really loud.. he isn't chewing with his mouth closed and every so often he intercepts the nasty chewing with a belch. It's making me physically ill.)

Saturday.. woke up, worked out, rode 2 horses for around 3-4 hours. I was pretty much pooped at that point. That evening I had my date with the Berkeley guy. The guy was quite eccentric.. smartest person I'll probably ever meet in my life, but very strange. From a different world than me. :) One arm was covered in tattoos up to his shoulder, he had piercings *all* over his body, but he was quite friendly and we had a lot of fun. We went for sushi (racked up quite a bill and gorged ourselves) then went to see 'xXx' which was pretty much a glorified James Bond flick, but entertaining. We came back to my place, talked and messed around a little bit. I still don't see anything romantic between us.. but who knows. He is quite sweet and I'll probably see him again.

Sunday.. was quite simply amazing. *Possibly* the best date I've had so far. He lived in Mountain View and I headed over to his place around noon. Of course I got lost and ended up in the middle of Sunnyvale.. somehow I had missed the 50+ signs that indicated I was in Sunnyvale so I had to backtrack quite a bit to find his place, further supporting my theory that if there's a way to get lost, I'm there. I arrive at his place.. a total boys' house with computers and game consoles all over the place. Alright this is getting boring, so FAST FORWARD!!

He was very very sweet.. and quite the gentleman (and VERY yummy-looking). He drove a Z3 and had a BMW sports motorcycle as well. The day was arranged for us.. and first was the ice skating. Conversation was easy, although he is much more straight-laced than I am. I had to contain myself from being the mean perverted dirty joke-making person I usually am. When we started ice skating, I really REALLY had to contain myself from not laughing everytime someone fell (and believe me, this was very hard.. people were falling all around me every 5 seconds). I saw some really spectacular falls which I couldn't help laughing at.. he did all sorts of different tricks, jumping over cones in stuff.. it was cute.

We then went to the SF MOMA (museum of modern art) but couldn't stay there for very long since the museum was already closing. Afterwards we went to Fisherman's Wharf and to Neptune's for dinner. Quite fancy and nice. He was quite a good host - he knew the city well and after the sun set we drove around different neighborhoods, including one spot where the view was breathtaking.. almost a 180 degree view of the city and the ocean. We drove back to his place and talked a little while I stocked up on caffeine for the ride home. I found that he had no porn on his computer and I think he was a little shocked when I told him I've been in porn shops before (wow, am I really that dirty?). He walked me out to my truck, told me he wanted to see me again.. and gave me a *very* polite hug (which I initiated) before saying goodnight.

So I'm a bit perplexed. He's very different than any other guy I've dated before. He looked at me a lot.. smiled at me, made a lot of eye-contact (which made me smile). However, he was so polite! He didn't really touch me at any point.. and the hug at the end.. was strange.. and the fact that he doesn't take pleasure in people falling boggles my mind..

And the games begin.. do I email him first? I told him I would.. but should I wait for him to mail me? Knowing me I will. I hate games.

Boys smell good. ;)

Oh man.. I found this awesome place to move into:

My partner and I are considering leasing a huge executive style home w/pool and room for horses in Concord. Pets are okay w/owner and we have one bird and a small dog.

Available are two bedrooms and a bath... and a formal living room with a fireplace for your use/pleasure. Lots of storage space/room for horse trailer/hay/tack. Single room rental is $750 per month w/pasture for one horse. Couple considered... w/horse $1,450 for BOTH rooms, bath and living room space. We will occupy the Master bed/bath and family room...shared dining room and kitchen. View is spectacular! Mt. Diablo trails right across street! Deposit single is $500./Couple is $1,000. Private phone a must. Cable, water garbage included in rent. PGE, DSL, shared.

Queer friendly household. No smoking. No heavy party types. Responsible, employed and socially friendly preferred.

I just spoke one of the gals for about 45 minutes.. she sounds awesome and the house sounds incredible. The only downfall would be that I'd have to move again. :( Oh well, it'd be worth it. The window to my bedroom does NOT close and last night was pretty damn cold!!

I have connection at home!!! Even though its 28.8 GHEYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It sucks. Takes me half an hour to check my email. But at least now I can message people again.

Bob helped me get my connection up last night and he was telling me that he's got two dates lined up this weekend! I say.. good for him. :) One is a horsey type gal that lives real close to him. I really do hope he has fun!!

I have a pretty good weekend ahead of me also. Tonight I'll probably ride.. most likely by myself. I don't mind riding by myself - its actually quite peaceful and therapeutic.. I don't have to worry about Isabella casting evil faces to the other horses. Tomorrow I have to return a bunch of things in the morning and pick some stuff up from Bob's place.. then in the evening I'll be hanging out with a guy from Berkeley.. we made plans to see xXx. Nothing romantic.. I think we'll get along great as friends but I'm too mainstream and he seems too alternative to have anything work out boyfriend/girlfriend-wise. But he's great fun to talk to and an interesting person. Then Sunday I'll be meeting up with this guy from Mountain View. He is a UC Davis alumni also.. and he's a gamer-dood. We spoke briefly yesterday and the conversation was a little stilted.. he didn't really laugh at my jokes.. so I'm not sure how well it'll go Sunday. S'ok though.. I'm having fun meeting people.. at the very least I'll see another movie (and I haven't seen any since MIB2!!). I do have reservations about dating other people.. I'm really getting more and more interested in that guy I mentioned earlier.. however, he's in school at the moment and can't really take time off to meet in person just yet so I guess things are on hold with him until that happens. We seem to get along fabulously.. ;) and did I mention he was totally fucking hot?

Also on Sunday I'm going to go catch lunch with Mark.. I spoke to him last night and he seems to be having great fun with his new college life. I'm glad he's having fun and I hope he gets laid soon.

Thank goodness.. I'm done. Today was quite stressful.. my boss changed around EVERYTHING in my presentation 2 hours before I was to talk. Grrrrrrrrrrrrrr...

I'm going on a nice long walk with China tonight to celebrate.. it'll be my first walk in my new neighborhood! Afterwards, I'm going to check out another place to live in Concord. This is with an older woman who rides horses.. she has a Rottwieler that would be able to keep China company.. but I don't know. Its a little far away.. and I'm beginning to really like where the house is where I am at now.. just not the guy that is stealing food from everyone and scraping people's cars and not telling them. Oh well, we'll see...

Stressed out !!!! Big presentation this afternoon.. Gahhh...

Last night I went on an awesome trail ride with some friends. In the evening we headed out towards the hills and watched the full moon rise. It was incredible..

I forgot to put on deoderant today.. the day of my presentation. I'm a big dork. Maybe a sweaty one this afternoon.

Ugh, my yahoo messenger isn't working.. maybe they found me out at work. I need something sweet to lick.

I've just got to add one more disclaimer to my list below..

I don't know if I'm ready for him yet. Part of me says its too soon, but who is to dictate when is too soon to find the one you're to be with? I'm patient.. I want to have fun in the meantime. I'm certainly not desperate to find this person. My heart is open to exploration..

I guess I've been kind of picky when I've been searching for a guy.. the criteria I've put up have been pretty high. I often wonder if its too much.. if I'm letting my soulmate pass me by because I prefer brown haired boys over blondes. But to be honest, that is what I'm attracted to.. a cute brown-haired boy makes my heart skip a lot faster than a blond-haired beauty. ;) Anyways, here goes (oh man, I love lists):

brown hair, dreamy eyes

within 3-4 years of my age

tall (over 5'8"-5'9" preferably)

cute, although beauty is definitely in the eye of the beholder. Brad Pitt doesn't do anything for me.

goals, ambitions, sensibility and realism

showers daily and brushes their teeth at least twice a day (HAHA!!!)

geeky, knows what DDR and FFX stand for, understands my need to play Q3X CTF

loves animals, since China and Isabella are my life

loves family, since mine is very important to me

believes in God

wants children

looking for the one they will grow and age until he is an old curmadegeon (wtf, did I spell that right?)

believes in respect and everlasting true love and devotion

allows me to be me... goofy and silly, a big kid.. who'll understand that when I get cranky it doesn't mean that I don't love them, but I just need my space

won't take themselves or me too seriously when dealing with the small things in life, I love having fun, laughing, teasing.

will think of me as a goddess that walks this earth.. and I'll think of the same. he'll take my breath away everytime I glance his way.

amazing kisser

I had to add the last one in there.. :)

So is this a hopeless dream? I know he's out there.. maybe I've already found him.

Alright, so now that I'm not living with Bob anymore, I can be more frank with you guys with what's been happening in my love life.

Last night I had an impromptu date/hanging out with a guy I met online. Okay, I really don't want to be mean.. but it didn't go very well. For one thing, I had a little trepidation in hanging out in the first place. There has been another guy I've been talking to for a while who lives far away who I've been slowly developing feelings for.. but I've been really hesitant because of the distance. He's younger than me.. very attractive.. and very very sweet. His relationship history is somewhat similar to mine.. he's had an engagement in the past (which was broken off because his fiance cheated on him) but for once (which is a relief on my part) I have feelings for a guy whose heart is open.. but he lives far away!! So I don't know what I'm setting myself up for.. which worries me. But I'm just going to not worry about it and let things develop if they do.

Back to the guy. He was younger.. and quite aggressive. I wasn't really prepared for it and I wasn't attracted to him (although he was cute) when he put his moves on me. So we played around a little bit, then I gave him the lame excuse, "I'm not ready for it, it feels wierd." He believed me and went home. It got me thinking.. how many times has that saying been used as an excuse and not really an actual truth? What about when that other guy I fell for told me he didn't think he could love someone again except for his first girlfriend.. what if that was an excuse as well? Or the other guy who knows who he is.. told me he wasn't ready. Its hard to believe anything anymore. I like to believe that I'm not one to play games with relationships.. but I guess I just did last night.

I Am A: Neutral Good Half-Elf Ranger Fighter


Alignment:
Neutral Good characters believe in the power of good above all else. They will work to make the world a better place, and will do whatever is necessary to bring that about, whether it goes for or against whatever is considered 'normal'.


Race:
Half-Elves are a cross between a human and an elf. They are smaller, like their elven ancestors, but have a much shorter lifespan. They are sometimes looked down upon as half-breeds, but this is rare. They have both the curious drive of humans and the patience of elves.


Primary Class:
Rangers are the defenders of nature and the elements. They are in tune with the Earth, and work to keep it safe and healthy.


Secondary Class:
Fighters are the warriors. They use weapons to accomplish their goals. This isn't to say that they aren't intelligent, but that they do, in fact, believe that violence is frequently the answer.


Deity:
Mielikki is the Neutral Good goddess of the forest and autumn. She is also known as the Lady of the Forest, and is the Patron of Rangers. Her followers are devoted to nature, and believe in the positive and outreaching elements of it. They use light armor, and a variety of weapons suitable for hunting, which they are quite skilled at. Mielikki's symbol is a unicorn head.


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Oh man, I forgot to mention I hit my kneecap so friggin hard against the corner of my computer case. I haven't felt pain like that in a looooong time. Probably not since I had my appendix out! It was right in front of everybody also.. and the whole time China was trying to console me by hitting me really hard with her tail (OW!!). I would tell her to lie down and she'd lie her front end down and root her nose into the side of my butt as I was holding my knee in agony and smack me with her tail in the air.

Well, after 8 hours of packing and moving, I'm finally in my new place.. and I don't like it. There are 3 roommates, one of which is gone on vacation right now. The guy is pretty laid back - but he's a pothead, one of the girls is an extreme party-poser who smokes and called me "Hey girl", and the one that is gone right now is the one who keeps calling the place a "compound". I don't think China likes the place..

Friday night I went on a date.. didn't go so well. Still looking..

My brother lives in the bay area now!! He moved up this weekend in Berkeley. I'm so glad he's up here.. makes this time of transition for me much easier.

It was tough to see Bob leave yesterday. He was kind enough to help me all day long moving boxes and furniture into my new place and I knew it wasn't easy for him. He told me to "take care of myself" which I will really try to do. This is an era of self-improvement for me and I hope he does the same. There are a lot of things I won't miss, but the familiarity and routine I will. Hell, it was what I was accustomed to for 5 years.

No internet at this place.. and I have no phone line. So if you want to talk to me, call my cell number. I do have a cable box in my room (I've NEVER had cable!) so last night I was just watching TV. I hope I don't become a TV zombie. I was watching this odd show on HBO about sex. One was this group of black women who do poetry and artistic dance on "punany". If you don't know what that is, look it up. :) The next group was this piece on foot fetishes. There was one guy who was talking about his foot fetish that was just plain HOT. He can suck on my toes anytime. hahaha!!

Moving today! I hope all my furniture fits into my teeny room. Oh yeah, the one that was true in my list was the 11th one down.. boring, aren't I?

Click this.. you won't be disappointed. I was like.. wtf?

Like.. whoa. This is an actual website:
http://www.111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111.com/

Hey, I got a few new readers to this site due to an 'Akasha' impersonator on the Q3 servers giving out my website. Thanks to whoever you are! New readers = teh cool!!

If ya wanna talk to me, msn = Akasha1_@hotmail.com yahoo = jsrha

Although I won't have messenger after Sunday cuz I'm moving.. no internet access from home for a while.

I met Seanna last night at the new place.. she was very nice and actually quite funny. I'm actually starting to like her a bit.

I changed my guestbook questions again.. if you're bored and want to make me very very happy, go there and sign it for me! :)

Tonight I pack up my paintings and pictures on the wall.. I'm also going to pack up some of my food and take it over to the new place. I'm a little apprehensive moving in with those girls.. I hope the environment has settled down. Plus everyone has been living there for a while so I'll be the newest one living there which will makes things a little uncomfortable I think. Oh well.. such is life. Bah, I'm nervous.

One of my links to the left is Save Karyn. Well, now she has a counter-site, Don't Save Karyn.

I've been following her progress and I think it's pretty darn cool that she took the initiative to take on a project like this to get her out of debt. It is seriously hard being an independent woman growing up.. and I say growing up because you do make mistakes as you learn what it takes to be responsible. Anyways, I made my contribution and recieved the belt last night.. hey, I know that I'm supposed to be saving money too.. but I figure a belt is cheaper than buying new jeans.. amazingly, it's a little big for me.. but it looks snazzy and cool.

Hey can someone tell me wth shabby chic is? I don't get it.

Last night around 10:45 I went to look at this guy's place in Concord that I may possibly rent.. he seemed to be very cool and we got along well.. I look at another place on Saturday night too. Wish me luck!!

Okay it's 1pm and I haven't changed my underwear around yet.. I'm wondering is it worth it now??

Oh crap.. I wore my underwear inside out again today.. :(

Alright, I have to clear this up..
I DID NOT HAVE SEXUAL RELATIONS WITH A 16 YEAR OLD BOY, PEOPLE!!!!!!!!!

Not even close!!! You all have dirty dirty minds there to even think that! And besides, when I was 16-17, my boyfriend was 8 years old.. and I think that is MUCH MUCH sicker than the woman being older. Yes, it's a double standard, but its true.

As a reminder to you people.. yahoo. my id: jsrha GET ON IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :) I'm not pushy or anything am I?

My list of me features:

I'm skinny

I wear 5" stillettos everywhere I go

I love flying on airplanes

I enjoy walking around without a bra on

I've participated in a wet T-shirt contest and have the pictures to prove it

I don't enjoy licking stamps

I've never took the can of coffee cream and poured it into my mouth

I never ever take the can of whipping cream and spray it in my mouth. And I would never spray it right after into China's mouth.

Don't love me, I don't need your attention

I can't live without makeup

I've never had sex outside

I hate hanging out with my family

I love hurting people

I sniff glue

I see dead people

I hate reality TV shows.. especially "Big Brother" and "American Idol"

I love the city

I once streaked across my high school campus

I had sex with a 16 year old boy

I've masterbated my dog

Ooops, I crapped my pants

Cool list eh? All are lies except for one.. try and guess.

I suppose I should write something about this past weekend...

Driving was tough.. although with Paul there, the time passed by quickly. We talked about everything, embarrassing moments, etc.. and played games like "A-Z, things you wouldn't do for $500" "A-Z, things you've done/could do that your parents would get mad at". It was quite amusing.. when I was his age I wouldn't say too much because I was afraid I'd say something dumb.. but Paul said pretty much anything he wanted which was entertaining to say the least. That boy was toooooooooo cute. =)

My brother has his Korea story up on his blog.. I cannot believe he ate dog. I hit him really really hard several times for this. My mom took a taste so I had to hit her too (GRRRRRRRRR).

I threw up at Knott's Berry Farm. I had a fine dandy time on any of the up/down rides (with a reminder later bye my mom that I peed on the Parachute ride when I was 5 - thanks mommy) but I got on Boomerang, a ride filled with lots of bumps and corkscrews, and felt absolutely horrible after that. Damn I'm getting old. =(

The LAN party was interesting.. a lot of 30+ guys sitting around playing. My quake clan broke up so I'm not sure what I'm going to do with playing anymore.. but I guess that's just as well. I don't have a internet connection yet at the place I'm moving into this weekend.. so my connection will be limited to work for now.. *cry*

I'm at my mommy's house in LA. We've turned the dining room table into a computer room with all the computers hooked together. We had a long-ass drive yesterday and we're about to head out to Knott's. I'm getting better at DDR.. although I fell off of the pad yesterday.. for no reason at all. I landed on my ass right in front of Phoenix/Paul. My brother said it was the first time anyone's fallen off of the pad without being under the influence.. but I'm up to 4 footer songs now!

DO YOU LIKE TALKING IN CAPS? GO HERE.

So I'm leaving for Southern California tomorrow morning (early!!). I have passed the threshold of geekdom and I will be attending a Quake 3 Excessive lan party.. wooohooo!! I'm driving first to Santa Cruz to pick up Paul ("Phoenix" - Mark's age) then we'll be on our way!

Thursday night.. possibly meet up with a few people and hit the hot tub, Friday.. Knott's Berry Farm! Saturday.. lan party until who knows when (although I'll probably fall asleep on the floor somewhere), Sunday.. birthday breakfast with Lizette and drive back!

I don't know what's wrong with me today.. I'm just a space cadet! I forgot to wear my watch.. I forgot my cell phone at home (wheee, I'm naked!!).. and I'm kind of just wandering around today a little bit confused. Duh.. where the heck am I?

My calf is much better.. no cramping for the past two nights. I've been guzzling down my V8 juice. It's good stuff! Dude, it's twice as much potassium as a banana! I'm still sore today though.. rode Isabella a lot last night. A couple at the barn were trying out each others horses with Bob and me and she was very very nervous after I let other people ride her. Bob even fell off of her!! The first time anyone has fallen off of her back!! So I had to get back on and get her relaxed and listening to me again.. argh.. I'm not going to let beginner riders ride her anymore.

Oh yeah, the lock on the stall in the ladies' restroom is still broken. Isa figured out a way to open it from the outside so people can use the stall and I've been pleased to see that the bathroom has been locked with no one inside a few times.. so that means other people have had to crawl out underneath to get out also. MUHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Happy 23rd Lizette!! Love you!
Okay, I'm a bad sister.. I'm off by 2 days.. but I did say happy birthday to you in your comments :)

I dyed my hair dark red. Actually it turned out kind of a purplish plum color, but it looks cool. I tried to take a picture of it but it didn't work.. here's my goofy picture anyways:

I found a new way to procrastinate from work. add yahoo messenger id: jsrha It gets through my firewall.. hehe!!

Forget it.

I posted this on a message board I frequent and thought I'd share the story with you guys since it exemplifies my dorkiness, the theme for the week it seems..

This totally reminds me of the summer that I spent guiding trail rides in Yosemite. This one ride I was leading out into the practice arena before we left for the trail was full of tourists from Sweden. I was riding this beautiful (but quite sensitive) bay QH mare and was turned around, talking to my group and watching how they were doing. To this day I have no idea what happened (although I speculate that a bee came over and errantly stung my horse) but the next thing I knew my mount was bucking and crowhopping all over the place.. and of course me, not even sitting the the saddle went BOUNCE BOUNCE (off her hindquarters) then THUD. Right on my tush on the ground!! In front of the people who I was supposed to ensure their safety for the next hour on the trails!

A fellow guide who had seen the whole thing had no mercy, just laughing his butt off... and I was sore, but my ego was probably more bruised than anything. So what did I do? What could I do.. I hammed it up, climbed back into the saddle, and led the ride. The best part of this story is that the people in the ride had someone on the ground videotaping the whole thing. So the film probably ended up on Sweden's Funniest Home Videos or something. I want royalties damnit!! :)

Haha, go check out Stacey's Justin/Sideshowbob comparison at the bottom of her journal.

If you're wondering why I'm posting so gosh darn much today its because both of my bosses are gone for the day. That means extra slacking, more web browsing. Don't worry, I'm still earning my paycheck by doing varioius tasks.

Ugh, I ate a huge Peach lolipop and now my stomach is feeling very queasy. Only one stall open in the restroom.. ugh..

Cramps, cramps, cramps!! Not the girly kind either. Sunday morning I woke up with my right calf muscle cramping. I haven't had that happen in a long time.. so I try and stretch out the muscle while I'm lying there in agony, but the darn thing keeps wanting to cramp up. I remember reaching down to massage my calf muscle, watching it actually shorten and contract.. I was in utter pain, yet fascinated that my body could change like that in front of my eyes without me having to exert any effort.

Soo.. I have to eat more potassium. More bananas, and I found that the Low Sodium V8 (ohh I love this stuff! tis yummy, and I'm not being sarcastic) has a lot of potassium in it as well. This morning I woke up with my muscles sore from my ride yesterday.. but my calf muscle especially was quite sore.. I'm wondering if it cramped up last night and I just didn't wake up. So I'm walking with a slight limp today.

My mail order prescription for my birth control pills hasen't arrived yet!! And I was supposed to take my first pill yesterday! Grrrrrr.... oh well, its not like I'm getting any action anyway. :)

I am the biggest Dork!!! Case in point..

This morning I get to work.. and I have to pee. Just like any other morning. I go into the bathroom, lock the door, do my business.. and when I go to unlock the door, the lock breaks! I am in disbelief.. I try rotating the lock on the door a few more times. gaaaahhh.. I'm locked inside. I review my options.

1. Wait until someone finds me. The toilet doesn't even have a cover so I would have to stand there in the stall until someone came in. This would be quite embarrassing.. and what if the person couldn't let me out from the outside? They'd have to bring in more people, possibly security. Not a good plan.

2. Climb over. I'm not that agile.. but if I fell and hurt myself.. I could possibly sue the company. This option might be worthwhile.

3. Belly crawl underneath the partition. This could be quite embarrassing as well if I were caught. Plus it'd be gross.. however, the floors looked fairly clean.. the building is usually spotless because its a lab facility and the floors looked like they were mopped over the weekend.

So I did the 5 year old kid thing and crawled under the partition into the adjoining stall, praying that no one would enter the bathroom. I was lucky and escaped unscathed. However, one of the two stalls in the ladies bathroom is now unavailable with no explanation (although I had to explain my adventure to Isa). So every time I enter the ladies restroom today I'm reminded of what a dork I am..

Found this site with all sorts of wallpaper and app skins for your needs.

Went on an awesome ride at Lake Chabot today.. boy, I'm going to be very sore tomorrow. This is one of my favorite places to ride. Running through the trails with tall eucalyptus trees surrounding you.. it's awesome.

I look like I'm going to slide over to the right in this photo.. if you can see, the lake is right behind us.

Girl meets boy.. boy has scarred past. He doesn't feel he can love anyone ever again.

They give it a try. They make a rare connection. Later, instincts rush in before rational thought. She later regrets her actions.

He tells her he thinks he'll hurt her. She agrees. She wants to take the risk. He reluctantly agees.

Boy likes girl.. a lot. Girl likes boy.. a lot.

They meet again. He promises not to hurt her. They promise not to play games. They fall into the same trap.

He says he doesn't have the time she deserves to devote at this point in his life. He feels he'll hurt her more if they continue on. She feels she's setting herself up to get hurt again.

They decide its for the best they shouldn't see each other.

"They are saved from potential heartache and pain."

Sad sad sad..

I stole this link from Steve (Andy and Lizette's friend). I just had to.. it rocks and makes me sooo happy!

Ninjas vs. Pirates

My opinion: I'd love to be a ninja.. be all secretive and mysterious.. but knowing me, I'd get sick of it quickly. As a Pirategirl, I could wear knee high boots, a tight leather belt with a short skirt, and those fluffy poet shirts that would fluff up and accent my boobs. Like Gena Davis in Cutthroat Island! Ninjas would have to remain covered and hidden since they are stealthy. I think it would be kind of boring.. lots of waiting for your victim to come so you could kill them quietly.

I just checked my account balance at CalFed.. $167.88 Fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck!!!!!!!!

I had to ask for some money from my Dad.. money is really tight right now with moving and all. I really have to budget my money for the next couple of months. Chris, the guy who is renting the room to me offered me the master bedroom and my own bathroom with LOTS and LOTS more space for $150 more a month.. $900. I am really tempted. I'd be able to fit all of my furniture in the room and not have to share a bathroom with the girl roommate who scares me. So in an effort to save money in the next few months I will:
1. Bring my lunch from home two times a week.
2. Stick to the cafeteria at work or places where I can spend at most $5 for lunch.
3. Drink fruit protein shakes for breakfast and dinner unless someone wants to buy me dinner (hahaha!!)
4. No more clothes shopping.. I can wait until Christmas.
5. No riding events this year = no competitions (makes me sad!)
6. If I *must* see a film, go to the afternoon matinee, no theatre food.
7. Engage in cheap entertainment.. like shining a laser pointy thing and watching my dog try and eat it.

Yesterday was fun.. my work group had arranged a potluck lunch and a boat ride on the lake. Wednesdays are 1/2 price for boat rentals so it was $21 to rent an electric boat on the lake to fit up to 9 people. There were 7 of us plus China and we fit just fine.. China's first boat ride! She was such a good pup.

Have any of you guys been watching Big Brother? Oh.. its getting good now. There are 2 couples in the house having sex ("I can orgasm if someone touches my stomach just right.."), a drunk southern belle hooked on cheese - I love Amy.. I think if I were in the house I might be her, a guy that sleep-talks in whole coherent sentences ("Dude that's crazy, he's all ambidextrous like Nadia Comaneche" - wtf??), and a black fashion gay guy.. Marselles.. I love him! I'm having so much fun watching the show.. its great entertainment while I'm on my stairclimber.