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Hey Mark, here's your damn webcam. :) I bought two.. one should be arriving at your house probably next week.

Oh yeah the pictures below were complimentary of my new favorite site (aside from stile)
Tomorrow Bob and I will be attending the Horse Expo in Sacramento provided we can get the neighbors to look after Blade and China.

I wasn't originally planning on going.. but I haven't exercised at all this week.. and this will be a day of walking around outside. So I figured that'll be good for me. Plus it's HORSEY!!!!!!!!!! Plus its supposed to be 10 degrees cooler than it has been.. and it's been baking hot these past few days. Traffic has been horrible also.. so the air condition has got to be pretty bad.

I was looking over the Horse Expo, planning the exhibits and seminars I wanted to go to, and I was pretty disappointed in the lack of endurance and competitive trail representation. These are the two fastest growing sports in the equestrian community.. and there are no seminars on these two subjects. Oh well, they'll probably have booths at least.

The Chinese president looking like I do at meetings.

For some reason my site has been un-banned from work... woooo!

China pictures!! Omg.. can you stand it?? She's so damn cute!!





Except when she does shit like this:

Alex says, "What the fuck happened here.."

Do you think this would really work?

Can you hear me now? Good.

Angry, pissed off, angry. That's been the theme for yesterday and most of today.

Yesterday at the therapist I bitched about the things that bother me about Bob. Then Bob and I went to the Spaghetti Factory for dinner and I bitched about one of my coworkers who is trying to undermine the responsibilities that I have. Then this morning there was awful, horrendous traffic and I was fuming on the way to work. I need a massage or something peaceful tonight. Oh yeah, and I wasn't regular this morning so I felt all stopped up and that made me angry too. China didn't poop either.

This is the funniest movie EVER.

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Mango Mochi
Red Bean Mochi
Vanilla Mochi
Strawberry Mochi
Kona Coffee Mochi
Chocolate Mochi

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I had an X-rated dream last night.. kiddies, cover your eyes, here goes.

Okay, I was at an event with a few friends of mine. Unclear what the event was. At night my friends and I all had to sleep in this white van. I was walking up to the van with an aquaintance of mine from the barn.. I'm not that good friends with her. She's an older woman, maybe in her 40s. We meet up with her guy friend who I'm told is 40 years old. I see his face and even though he's older, he looks quite young and is kind of attractive. She is his booty call for the night but the only place they can do it is in the van with the rest of us girls trying to sleep. Mmmkay. So, I get into the front seat and try to sleep while they're doing the nasty in the seats behind me. The scene changes. I'm now lying down trying to sleep in the seats they were just in and they're one seat over. He gets thrown over the seat on top of me (YEEESH) and I remember seeing that he had a big penis. He goes back over to schlep her again.

Next morning we wake up and I remember sex smell permeating the van. Like she fell asleep with her vagina open.

Bizarre and gross, eh?

Rocco porn star says, "Nasty nasty nasty".

That is all.

Someone just paged me on my cellphone from MSN messenger.. here was their message:

"I like Boobies!"

Okay, and I have no idea who it was from.

Stupid-ass dumb dog took my wallet, ate up the leather as well as god knows what that was kept inside. I searched for it this morning for about 1/2 an hour, making me late for work. Between the time that Bob left the house and I got up, she found my purse, searched through it, scattered my sunglasses up the stairs, chewed up my water bottle, and hid my wallet. I asked Bob to look for my wallet while I was at work (I don't have my driver's license mind you) and he come home and find the wallet and all of the chewed up content all over the living room floor. Man, I could just kick her right now.

Don't worry, I won't.. but I feel like punching something right now. This is the second time she's destroyed my ATM card. When she's left unsupervised she actively finds shit to destroy. From now on she gets kenneled every time we leave the house.

I heard on the radio that this guy changed his name to 'Hong Kong Fui' without telling his wife. That is just AWESEOMe!!! I was just tickled by that.

Isabella is still a little off.. very hard to notice. So I'm taking her down to Pioneer Equine Hospital next next Monday to get her checked out by Dr. Black. Dr. Black is California's best lameness vet.. so I know she'll get this problem solved instead of dicking around with the local vets. That was my experience when I was having all sorts of problems with Harley.

I found out from Suzie, the gal that bought Harley from me, that she's giving him to the Oakland Mounted Park Patrol. I hope he finds a happy home there.. he's a complicated horse and never really bonded with me.

My old page.. I was pretty lame back in the day. Oh wait, I am still lame.

I should have thought of this first.<

Ever since college I've been gaining weight.. being in a relationship it seems it is mandatory to add a few pounds. So I went to my doctor yesterday and I'm going to get healthy. I start playing Quake back in November and being sedentary so many hours of the day hasn't been helping at all! I'm hoping now that ride season is starting, the weather being nicer, and the sun being out longer, it'll be easier for me to go outside and be active like I was earlier last year. The doctor measured my fat percentage compared to my muscle mass and she said I only have to lose about half the weight than I thought I had to lose to get to my "ideal". I have a lot of muscle... A LOT. She was pretty suprised actually and I had to get measured twice.. She said that maybe I have a lot of marbeling in my muscle (like beef). Hahaha. I'd make a good filet mignon.. anybody want some?

So I'm getting a full physical tonight and I'm meeting with a nutritionist next week to see what foods I should be eating (because I've been eating really badly) and how to incorporate a good exercise program into my life. I plan to ride as much as I can and on the days I don't ride, power walk around the park. In college at one point I was running about 2 miles a day.. but my quads in my legs just bulked up and it didn't seem like I was losing any fat at all. I'm looking forward to making a positive change in my life and getting in control of the way I look and feel. I sit on my ass way too much these days!

This is wierd.. why would anyone buy this?

Yes, Mark, I am better than you at Quake 3 Excessive CTF.. in fact, I ROCK. :)

Last night I had a dream that Isa was in. We were having a menage a trois with a really FAT man. Both of us were on either side of him and I couldn't see her on the other side. He was very fat. I was getting all disgusted because he was getting turned on.

Then Isa wanted me to kiss her.. and all I remember was that my lips were really dry.. and I told her it was not representative of what I really kiss like. This is odd because I always have to have chapstick or lipstick on me.

Horraay for lesbian dreams!!

I have nothing to write about today.. I feel crappy about myself.

Yesterday I came back from Los Angeles.. I had a good four days spending it with my family. It's so natural spending time with them. I don't feel awkward or wierd like if I haven't seen friends in a while.. you know, the uncomfortableness of re-establishing your relationship with them. I think I did miss Bob while I was down there. It was strange not having him there since for the past 3 years he's been a staple part of any interaction I have with my family. I'm still trying to figure out my emotions with him. We're going to the counselor again tonight. Right now he provides comfort to my life.. with his friendship. I am unsure if there is more than that.. I care for him a lot.

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My brother recently attended my grandfather's (on my father's side) funeral. This brought up a lot of emotions and prompted him to publish his UC essay on his site. Go read it. It explains a lot of my past.. what I grew up with. The issues with my father.. and perhaps a contribution to what has been going on with my relationship with Bob. At the counselor's, we delved a little into my perception of my parent's relationship. I can't even call it a relationship. My father was not a husband to my mother. At least not what I consider a husband.

I deny negative emotions. I've never dealt with what I experienced growing up. When I was in high school and all of this started happening, I turned to the internet and found a different world I could escape into. This was back in the early nineties when the Internet was still evolving.. my first experience would be dialup BBS's on my 2400 baud modem. I was having problems with the clique of friends I had at the time.. they were asians and decided to turn FOB on me so I escaped even further into the Internet. I wasn't completely recluse. I had Miho, my best friend there to support me at the time.. and I was also working at a veterinary clinic and hung out with friends I met from there. I remember one afternoon I was online.. I had lost track of time.. and finally when I got off the phone line, I got a call from Mark's elementary school asking where I was. I was supposed to pick him up that day and had completely forgot. It was 2 hours after school had ended for him.. I learned that he had been crying, waiting for me. The school was trying to call, but the line was busy. That was a turning point for me.. I felt I had failed as his sister.

Ugh, I can write more on this.. but not now.. I'm too tired. Right now I'm at my mom's place in Los Angeles for my sister's graduation on Saturday. Goodnight.. I'm going to bed..

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Last night Bob and I went to a counselor. It was an interesting experience.. she's a nice woman, but I feel so jaded to the whole counseling thing. I worked at a mental health hotline for 3 years in high school. I was very involved, I was on the Board of Directors and I trained new listeners into the program. So I pretty much already know what the therapist is going to say and why she says it. It's also hard for me to be focused the whole hour on what is being said. I wonder if that's a side effect of the few times I've used pot? At one point the therapist asked me a question, "What were you feeling at the exact time that Bob said so-and-so"... and I was like, "Eh.. what? I don't remember". Hahaha

Throughout this whole ordeal I am learning a lot about myself. I think I'm going to have to deal with a lot of issues that I've repressed in the past. I block out negative memories and only have a vague recollection of them. My parents did a lot to "protect" us children from the truth and I pretty much let them.

She pretty much summed it up nicely as far as the reason we're seeing her. She said she had no vested interest in us staying together or not.. if we decide to stay together she will help us find out why I am having the problems I am and what Bob can do to help.. and if we decide to be apart, she will help us deal with that and go on with our lives.

(blatently stolen) Uh.. I'm a twinkie.

What Kind Of Asian Are You?

Young Asians in America come in many forms. Below are the major
categories. Most Asians fit into multiple groups. For example, Rice-boys can
also be Fobs and many Tabs are Fobulous. The only groups that are never part
of another group are the Twinkies and the Asian-Americans. Claim your
Fobbiness! When you see your Asian friend, greet them with "Wassup Fob!" And
if your Asian friend says something ridiculous, say "Fob please!" Of course,
when a non-Asian calls you a Fob, that is grounds for a fight. Ahahaha...
The categories below are to be taken lightheartedly. Read, recognize and
laugh.

Twinkie
- Besides your nationality, there is little to distinguish you from
white people
- Your significant other is not Asian and never has been
- You have few Asian friends, if any
- You are embarrassed at family events because you cannot speak your
language and everyone has to switch to English to communicate with you
- You have no idea that the other types of Asians on this list even
exist
- You think Hello Kitty is dumb and do not know what Sanrio is
- You are the only Asian on this list that does not know what Bubble Tea
is
- You drive a Ford or some other domestic car and if you drive a Honda,
it is stock

Asian-American
- You claim yourself as Asian, but real Asians think you're whitewashed
and non-Asians see you as a foreigner. You fit in nowhere
- You have heard of Bubble Tea but have never actually had any
- You are confused about your cultural identity and express this
frustration through spoken word performances at your college
- You read A. magazine and think it's great
- You do not know who Leon, Aaron, Sammi, Hikki, or Kangta are
- You are only vaguely aware of the other Asians below

Fob (Fresh Off tha Boat)
- You were not born in America
- You know who Leon, Aaron, Sammi, Hikki, and Kangta are. In fact, you
have seen them at Atlantic City or Las Vegas recently
- You speak your native language fluently and so do all your friends
- You do not have any non-Asian friends
- Your parents do not speak any English
- When you speak English, you like to make everything plural
- You get extremely good grades in school
- You cannot dance
- Your fashion sense comes from whatever country you're from and you
incorporate nothing from American fashion into your wardrobe

SuperFob
- Your command of the English language is minimal and you don't care
- You like dim sum chicken feet
- You do not own a single CD, VCD, Video game, or DVD that isn't
bootlegged
- Your only hangout is Chinatown
- All the lights in your house are fluorescent
- You dry your cloths outside your window
- You need a haircut
- You either smell like cigarettes or food

Fobabee
- You are an Asian-American or Twinkie who has recently "awoken"
- You have a newly found fetish of Asian girls/boys
- You have taken the Asian Studies course at college
- You are trying to learn as much as possible about your culture to make
up for your lifetime of trying to be white (Twinkie ; Banana) or Black
(Chigger ; Thousand year old egg)
- If you are lucky, you will grow to become Fobulous

Gangsta Fob
- You have shot another Asian
- Your favorite hangout is a pool hall
- When you talk, you sound like a cross between a Fob and an urban black
kid
- Your hair looks silly, but no one will tell you because you'll shoot
them
- You have a serious gambling problem
- You are a Rice-boy, but your mods are cheap and are never painted to
match the rest of your car
- No one tells you your rice ride looks cheap because you'll shoot them
- You want to have a Tab girlfriend, but can only get Hoochie Tabs

Tab (Trendy Asian B*tch)
- You shop at A/X, Bebe, Banana Republic and Club Monaco
- You only wear black and will occasionally wear white to "mix it up"
- You do not weigh more than 105 lbs
- You have never paid for dinner at a restaurant in your life
- Platform heels are your favorite
- You are a makeup expert, in fact, you appear completely flawless
- You do not smile in public
- You are the object of desire of all Asian men and you know it
- You smoke
- Your cell phone is completely customized
- On the inside flip of your cell phone is a sticker pic of you and your
man
- Somewhere in your purse is a Sanrio item
- You only date Asian and will only date a boy with a nice car
- You are often seen with Rice-boys
- You never travel alone. You are either in the company of other Tabs or
your Rice-boy boyfriend

Hoochie Tab
- You are an import car model
- Your boobs are not real
- There are naked pictures of you floating around on the internet
somewhere
- Stiletto heels are your favorite
- Your role models are Francine Dee and Kaila Yu
- Your boyfriend is a Gangsta Fob
- You cheat on your boyfriend
- Unlike most Asians, you do not do well in school

Rice-Boy
- You drive an Asian import. Usually a Honda or Acura
- Your souped up car (known as a Rice-ride or Rice-rocket) is
unrecognizable from it's original stock form
- Your exhaust pipe is big enough for your head to fit in
- The spoiler on your car looks like it was made by Boeing
- The interior of your car also looks like it was designed by Boeing
- You always drive like you are racing someone
- You are not afraid of dying in a crash, but you are afraid of speed
bumps and parking lot on-ramps
- The only other person besides yourself who can sit in your car is your
105 lbs Tab girlfriend. If anyone else sits in your car, the entire bottom
of it will be touching the ground
- Even though your car is a Honda, it goes faster and is worth more than
a Lotus Esprit
- If you drive a Civic, your dream car is a Supra. If you drive a Supra,
your dream car is a Skyline (which you can never have). Poor Rice-boy.

Fobulous
- You speak perfect English and you are fluent in your native language
- You have Asian friends as well as non-Asian friends
- You listen to Asian pop as well as American music
- You are equally aware of both popular American culture and Asian pop
culture
- You are a good dancer
- You date Asian by choice even though you could rock the opposite sex
of any other race
- You are a good designer and have superior Html skills
- You have an Apt107 page AND an AA page and the guest books in both are
packed
- For you, FOB stands for Fabulous Oriental Being
- You have lots of Asian pride

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Queen of Naboo. You could have a split personality - simply to hide who you really are. You are extremely polite and gentle. However, if needs be, you will take action and can be a very good leader. You have the power to make people believe in you - use this power. The one you love could also end up being the one you hate.






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Last night I had this dream.. there was some sort of competition going on where you had to have a partner. My girlfriend and I were going to hook up against a team of two other girls. The other two girls were already in position.. and I was waiting for my partner to arrive. There was a guy that was there.. he looked familiar, like a guy named Jason (?) that used to give my sister and me tennis lessons at tennis courts in Torrance named Las Canchas. He was mean and he looked like a drunk frat boy most of the time.

He did have the body type that I like.. tall, stocky with a little cushion, muscles but not WWF muscley. As I was sitting there waiting, he came to me.. we chatted... then he gave me a hug. Not your regular hug.. but the kind of hug where he wraps his arms around my waist and puts his head on my chest.. like I was comforting him somehow. It felt really nice and sweet.

I found this comment on a site I was looking at.. thought it was appropriate for today's entry.

"Love does not make itself felt in the desire for copulation (a desire that extends to an infinite number of women) but in the desire for shared sleep (a desire limited to one woman)."

The more I learn about the world, the more I think that everyone is truly, honestly fucked up.

I had a girl's night out on Friday night. Now the two girls I went out with will probably never see my webpage so I can talk about this with you guys (names have been changed to protect the innocent). Karie's first husband was into some bizarre sex stuff. She came home one day and found him in nylons and high heels.. he would cut the crotch out of the nylons and want to have sex with her that way. He also wanted to stick things up her ass.. like a string of pearls which was hooked up to electricity. She divorced him because he was having an affair on the internet.. and when she went away for a business trip he invited the woman over and Karie found this lady's used underwear in her underwear drawer. Karie is engaged to be married next year to a really rich, handsome man. They get drunk A LOT together, I think almost everyday.. and they get stoned as well.

The other woman I went out with is Josie. The guy she has been with for 3 months right now has been expressing his fantasy to her that he wants to see her screw another man. He is really into anal play and she is suspecting that he may be a closet homosexual.

I also found out that an aquaintance of mine.. who has been married for 15 years has had 2 affairs on her husband. One of them lasting 3 years before her husband found out and the other one has been going on now for 2 years and her husband does not know.

Another friend of mine is sleeping with a married man.

What is wrong with the world? I enjoy having sex.. sharing my body with another guy who truly loves me and cares about me. It's an expression of my emotions. Why do so many people have such wierd kinks out there? What happened to normal naked bumping and grinding? What happened to loving one person for the rest of your life and having no other desire to be with another person.

Okay, I've done my share of strange things. I've had a threesome, and a foursome. I've had phone sex with a stranger. I've had a one-night stand. I've learned from these experiences enough to know what I want now. I'd rather just share myself with one person for the rest of my life.

All this is making me feel really jaded. At 25 years of age I think that maybe there is no one else that shares the same common values and ideals in this world. What is it about this world that makes us feel we have to adopt such strange kinks and uncontrolled sexual desire. Maybe I'll never be happy.. maybe I was never meant to be. Maybe I'm not normal.

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You are Country! Hopelessly smitten with a bunch of no-good two-timing bastards, you are Country music. You are a sweet and honest person most of the time... too bad those close to you aren't. Your main theme is angst, broken hearts, and general mistreatment by those you love. whether they are truly bastards or you do something to provoke this is not clear, but one thing's certain: you are tired of having your feelings toyed with.

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YEEHAW!!!

I stole this link from Mark.. man he finds the BEST stuff.

Isabella colicked again last night :( Fortunately I was able to catch it early.. I recognized the symptoms from last night.. not particularly enthusiastic about food.. a little lethargic.. and she seemed overly attached to Tavi. Fortunately Sandi had some Banamine available and I gave her about 5ccs IV. A few minutes later I lunged her, trotted her around.. and about that time she was lunging for the grass, wanting to eat. Sandi checked her overnight and Bob went this morning to look at her and she's fine now. Thank goodness. I have a feeling its because I've been a little lax on our worming program. Bob will worm her today. I'm so glad she's better.. what a relief.

A coworker and I were talking about her ex-boyfriend that has been emailing her. She describes this guy as being very VERY handsome and being really kinky in bed. He is just absolutely wild.. but he's very into animals. SICK SICK SICK!! She mentioned me in an e-mail to him once and he asked her to describe me and if she would do me (who wouldn't?). Rafael was there when she started describing me.. "Oh, she has these really nice big breasts.. and nice muscular legs because she rides her horse a lot.." Rafael interjected at this point and says, "I would say to him that she had these beautiful big breasts and sexy legs covered in flea bites.." hahahaha...

Yesterday afternoon I was driving home and listening to Alice's afternoon program. Each afternoon they have Alice's SAT (Stupid Ass Trivia) where Webster poses a multiple choice question for a listener. This afternoon the question was: At what time of day would you drink a tea that contained horse nettle:
a. Morning
b. Afternoon
c. Evening
d. At Bay Meadows Race Track

I was sitting in traffic that was hardly moving at all so I pick up my phone and give them a call. The first time.. busy. The second time.. it rang! Webster picked it up after 3-4 rings and told me I was the ninth caller, I could play the game with him. Let me tell you, I am the BIGGEST dork when it comes to winning anything. I'll totally completely make a fool out of myself "WOOOHOOO!!! AWWWW YEAH!!". So I answer the question correctly (the answer was d.) and I get on the list for a drawing at the end of June for $1000! Yay! Not only that, just for playing they're sending me the DVD of "Ocean's Eleven". I saw that movie on the plane but it was probably edited to hell.. it was a good movie! Yay for me!!!! Keep your fingers crossed..

Last night I woke myself up scratching all the bites on my legs.. who knows how long I had been scratching for.. I rolled over to look at the time, 1:50am! Sheesh.. I must've been at it for a while. I stopped and went back to sleep, my ankles just burning from all the scratching.

Andrea's having a girls night out get together tomorrow night.. woohoo, party!

That Jim guy emailed me again today.. I haven't been answering his emails because he creeps me out. The other day I was walking around site by myself and he was in his white van about a block away.. he sees me and passes me.. then backs ALL the way just so he could wave at me. I smiled, waved real fast, then went on my merry little way.

I had another strange wedding dream last night. It was the day of my wedding. It was unclear who my groom was. I arrive at this place that we had booked for the ceremony. Since we had seen the place and booked it, it had basically turned to hell. The room was converted into a schoolroom or something. The tile was falling off the ceiling and there were used chalkboard on every wall. I remember asking my mom to go to Target or somewhere to buy curtains to cover up the chalkboards for the ceremony and looking at my watch to see if we had enough time to do it. She told me not to worry about it and go find my wedding dress (I was unprepared and hadn't even purchased my dress yet).

I go into the lounge of the place where I was to be married and there were a bunch of girls trying on dresses.. I remember this one woman who was wearing a white dress with lavender accents that was just beautiful. A girl tosses me a dress to try on.. its strapless and looks like an 80s dress that Madonna wore in her "Like a Virgin" video. It looked odd on me and didn't fit right. Conveniently, there was a really high end department store next door (like Saks Fifth). I walk into the store and remembered seeing that gal Candace Cameron from Full House walk in behind me.. there was a handsome guy she was next to. My sister and best friend are with me, dressed pretty modestly for being in a department store like this.. we ask an employee where we would find the dresses and they usher us into an administrative office to wait for someone to help us. When the wedding dress attendant comes in, he asks us when we need the dress by. I say this evening and he says, "Oh girl, we can't get a dress to you in that amount of time.. go to this place instead.." And the dream ends.

I have no clue what this means. Well, I'll be visiting my sister in Los Angeles from the 16th through the 19th. I hope I can sort out some of my feelings through that brief reprive.

Onto the continuing saga of my insect bites. I have this body scrub from Origins made out of oils and salt.. I use it about once a week to keep my skin soft and from drying out. Key word here folks is salt.... add that to scratched up skin and you get searing pain. But it actually felt kind of good.. pain is cleansing.

The insect bites that I've been scratching have increased by size 3-fold. This makes them even more extra-pleasurable to scratch. I have some Benadryl creme I've been using to stave off the itching.. it works for a few hours then I'm scratching again. It's almost subconscious now.. watching TV, on the computer, playin' with China.. *scratchscratch*.

I also have a new pimple courtesy of this past weekend. Andrea had a few chocolates laid out at her place and of course I couldn't resist. I had maybe 4 pieces.. envision me with a bigass pimple on my chin and bugbites all over my legs. Aren't I absolutely stunning? Why yes I am...

Bob told me last night that he wants to try really hard to be together. I'm still confused about my feelings towards him. The last thing I want to do is have to hurt him again.. I am afraid of what its going to be like being alone. I'm even more afraid of being unhappy in a relationship 5 years from now. I told him I would try... we're to see a relationship counselor together that Andrea recommended. I don't want to go to mend our relationship, but rather figure out if we should be together in the first place. If anything, I just know that I need a break.

Man I love scratching my insect bites.. when you've waited a bit.. then perhaps your clothes brush against your skin, giving you the slightest urge to touch your bites.. then your fingernails start raking madly across the swollen red bumps - there is no feeling in the world that compares. I would say its equivalent to an orgasm.

I stole this link from Mark... I thought it deserved its own linkage on my page.

I didn't do much this weekend. I've been fairly reclusive actually.. spending time with China and Isabella. Saturday and Sunday I woke up at 12:30 and 1:30 respectively so I got a ton of sleep. I spent the weekend at my friend Andrea's place. Despite using Frontline on the dogs and cats, there are still fleas around. My legs have literally over 20 bites from those nasty little things. Yesterday I was looking at my socks and there were baby fleas crawling through the fabric. It makes my scalp tingle to even think about it. I really REALLY hope I didn't get Andrea's place infected. Insects seem to crave my skin and blood.

I just did a few searches on google to see what we'll have to do to get rid of the fleas. I think its a bigger problem than originally thought... they're probably in the carpets now and have laid down thousand of millions of eggs in the house already. CRAP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I never understood why he loved me in the first place.

I just slept through this hour and a half long training session our department just had on 'Bloodbourne Pathogens'. I was so incredibly tired.. at the end there was a quiz and to pass you had to get 7/10 questions correct. Isa was pretty much doodling the whole time so she wasn't really listening either. We cheated off each other and we both got 100% on the quiz.. yay for sleeping and learning through osmosis..!

I'm staying at my friend Andrea's house until Sunday.. still coming back home every night to get a change of clothes. The next few months I think my life is going to turn pretty reclusive. On Friday night there is a Quake CTF tourney thing that I'm playing in which should be fun.. I am just one big ol' nerd. At least I have Isabella and China.. they get me out of the house.. I'm looking forward to going out to the barn tonight..