For the first time I saw an episode of "Buffy, the Vampire Slayer" this week. Actually I lie, this was probably the 2nd show I've watched, but the first in its entirety. Bob was on the computer and I was bored after working out.. so I'm flippin' through the channels. I figure, Sarah Michelle Geller is hot and she supposedly kicks ass on this show, I'll give it a try.

Okay, I wrote that long introduction and I really don't have anything interesting or profound to say.. but I do have one question.

IS WILLOW GAY??

Someone please enlighten me.

This is sick!!!



Which Evil Criminal are You?

Bob wasn't in the dream.. just nameless, faceless guys. I had recently broken up with my boyfriend and gotten together with another guy (rebound!). A third guy comes into the picture.. and he tells me that he's always loved me... but that I lead him on and then back away (I've done that to guys unconsciously in real life that I like.. but my life has been too busy to pursue the relationship). I turn towards this guy and see him in a different way now that he's told me this. And then he gives me the most amazing kiss.. like my head just swirls and tingles envelope my body everytime his lips touch mine. You know how guys have wet dreams? This wasn't like that, but I swear that I felt that tingling after I woke up from the dream. After the kiss he leaves the room.. and I see the rebound guy is there. I don't remember how I felt towards that rebound guy.. but just remember that I wanted to be with the guy I had just kissed.

Today I had meeting all day long. I slept through most of them.. so nothing exciting to share with you all. I thought I'd share some past events that happened over Thanksgiving vacation that my brother and I found quite amusing.

My brother and I have a rudimentary grasp of the Korean language. Ask Bob, his knowledge of language (which he's learned from us) consists of food, swear words, and bodily functions.

Saturday after Thanksgiving holiday we went out to a Chinese restaurant with my grandparents. It was me, my mother, Bob, and Mark (my bro). My family's humor comes directly from the toilet. The whole time Bob, Mark and I were snickering at different Korean sentences consisting of 2 out of the 3 categories of Korean words we know. Food and bodily functions. My grandparents are pretty much oblivious to what we say although my Halmonee (grandmother) sometimes hears us talking and giggling and will say, "DAI!!" a Korean reprimand to us. Occassionally my harabogee (grandfather) will hear us also and will laugh.. he's not totally with the program. Anyways, I was laughing so hard coming out of the restaurant I was crying..

We drove back to my grandparents place and resumed our creative Korean sentence making. We'd call my mom to get her attention in the other room then ask, "Uhmma, sulsa chigae mandoo roo saeyoo!" (Please mother, make me some diarrhea stew) or "Uhmma, byumbee joo saeyooo!" (Please mother, give me constipation) or "Uhmma, donggoo hagoo jjuut hagoo chijul champong mandoo roo saeyoo!" (Please mother, make me a butthole, boob, and hemmorrhoid casserole). My mother was pissed off at first, but you could tell she was amused. After a while whenever we'd ask her to make something she'd give us a exasperated, "Okaaaaaay" which amused us even more. My grandparents just ignored us. We did this for about 2 hours, got a good workout laughing and crying.. it amused us so.

So that's my family.. we aren't your typical Korean family I guess

My personality analysis: (not a bad analysis, except for the education thing, I don't have a thirst for knowledge)

Your view on yourself
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girl/boyfriend you are looking for.
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship.
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love.
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you.
You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success?
Success in your career is not the most important thing in life. You are content with what you have and think that being with someone you love is more than spending all of your precious time just working.

What are you most afraid of?
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self?
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart, rather than your head, needs to solve.

Take the quiz here.

Shamlessly stolen from Chuck, Teehee!!

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I've been trying to anonymize my blogger a bit, you'll notice I've changed pretty much everything over to 'Akasha' and changed my picture up at the top. I love that drawing with the blood on her hands. Sorry, I don't remember who I stole it from!! If anyone knows please inform me so I can officially ask permission to use it. :) I still have my own pictures up for your morbid curiosity.

Ok, I'm a little sad this morning.

I got into work and parked at the lot across the street from campus. As I was waiting for the crosswalk to change, I saw a dog across the street on the other side. He was just standing on the sidewalk with no tags on or anything, like he was waiting for the crosswalk to change also. He was also staring at me.. not a mean kind of stare, just a soleful stare.. like he was waiting for me to crouch and invite him over. He waited patiently, looking at me then settled in and sat, still not losing eye contact. A big bus pulled up and a man walked out of the bus, noticed the dog and walked over to him. The dog took a few sidesteps from him, still glancing at me like I should do something.

ARGH!!! What did I do? I went on my merry little way towards work. I guess there is a little heart in me deep down inside.. I wish I could help this animal. Bob and I have been contemplating another dog and have been looking at this aussie puppy that's ready to go home. I could taken him and put him in the car, called Bob and had him come pick him up. *sigh*

Regrets suck, learn from my mistakes. Carpe diem.

Finally added the archives again for your reading pleasure. Enjoy!

Bilbo Baggins If I were a character in The Lord of the Rings, I would be Bilbo, Hobbit, uncle of Frodo and finder of the One Ring. In the movie, I am played by Ian Holm. Who would you be? Zovakware Lord of the Rings Character Test

Bilbo sounds like dildo.

Okay, really truly, I'm not a lesbian. But this picture makes me want to lick something. It's just yummy.

Freak Watcher's Notebook Do you have one in your town??

We saw two movies over the weekend, 'Harry Potter and the Sorcerer's Stone' and 'Shallow Hal'. Couldn't be more different of two movies. I *loved* Harry Potter. I know.. there are some anti-HP people out there, but I have to admit, I've read all 4 books, LOVED them, and I loved the movie. I'll probably buy the DVD when it comes out and watch the next movies as well. I've seen previews for the Hobbit movie as well.. that looks really good too although I haven't read the books.

In 8th grade 'Lord of the Rings' was required reading for the honors class I was in.. but MAN that book was boring. I couldn't get through it.. and if I couldn't get through it in eighth grade, it's highly doubtful I can get through it now (brain cells have deteriorated since then). But the movie looks cool.

'Shallow Hal' was pretty funny. The moral of the story is, "If you can't get girls, lower your standards!!!"

I'm back at work. I vowed to Bob never again will we commute on the two busiest holiday travel days of the year again. It took us about 7 1/2 hours to drive down on Wednesday with 3 stops, which wasn't too bad considering the amount of rain dumped on us as we were leaving.. but driving back, it took us 8 1/2 hours with two stops. It took us 45 minutes to just fill up and go through the Burger King drive-through at one point. It was HELL.

Got back, unloaded the car, said hi to all the critters, then settled in and kicked some ass playin' Q3. My bro needs to get a better computer.. I really sucked on his.

Can I tell you how freezing cold it is here?? When we drove into our townhome complex, everything was a mess.. leaves and dirt all over the streets, we must've had a good storm while we were gone. The thermometer read about 40 when I walked Blade at around 10:30 and it was even colder in our room. Bob bought a space heater for me when I had my surgery so I wouldn't get chilly, but that wasn't doin' nothin' to warm up our bedroom so Bob got the heater going (took him like an hour??). I think we finally fell asleep at about 1am. I woke up again in the middle of the night and it was about 90 degrees in our room. Turned off the heater and cranked open the window, then got up again and closed it once it got cold. So I didn't sleep well last night. But I'm happy to be home!!!!!

Took the virtual sorting hat quiz and suprise suprise, I was a Slytherin!

I had a dream last night I was in a seedy motel waiting to speak with the front desk. I looked down and I didn't have any pants or undies on, just a long shirt which I had tied up on my torso. So I untied my shirt and let it drape down and cover me.

I've been having dreams like that lately, where I go to a swimming party and for some reason I'm naked, no bathing suit on. Nobody seems to notice except for me. Wierd.

Welp, thanksgiving has come and gone.. in just a few more days Bob and I will be back at our home. I kind of miss our place.. Blade and all of the kitties and of course the horsies.

I can't play Quake very well here.. my brother's computer is too slow *cry*!

Kitsch, you like makin' people foam at the mouth, eh? :)

Take the Affliction Test Today!

Hey everyone, made it to my mom and bro's place safely. My sister and Andy are downstairs yelling at me to play some game (and it's already midnight here) so I guess I should go down there goshdarnit.

I am 58% ADDICTED TO THE INTERNET.



I am pretty addicted, but there is hope. I think I'm just well connected to the internet and technology, but it's really a start of a drug-like addiction. I must act now! Unplug this computer!


Take the INTERNET-ADDICT Test at Fuali.com!

I decided not to go.. I'll just watch it with the fam this weekend. Doood.. I'm so morally righteous.

I have a dilemma. Isa wants to skip out on work and go to see the Harry Potter movie. The movie is about 2 1/2 hours long! Ok, granted, I spend about 80% of my time at work not doing work, but still.. to be gone from work that long.. quite the moral dilemma.

While you're contemplating my dilemma, check out this site about asian vs caucasian eyes and wish Bob luck on his interview today.

Oh what to do.. I haven't even finished reading the book again (first time I read it was about a year ago and I don't remember anything).

Ok, the funniness has worn off.. I'm saaaaaaaaaad and I miss my webpage!! :~(

I can still access my guestbook.. if you want to entertain me at work, you can sign it and I'll read it and laugh, I promise.

Okay, this is damn funny. www.insidehermind.com has now been blocked by my company's IS site administrator.. so I can't access it anymore from work! Hehehe.. I'm being blocked from what I just wrote. Was it that offensive??

Tomorrow we're driving down to L.A. to spend the holidays with my family.. Yay!!!

Ok, gonna head on home now.. today was pretty mind-numbingly boring. I've been trying to be healthier by drinking lots of water and so I've been peein' like a sieve. Sheesh, it's been about every 10 minutes I'm headin' to the potty. The bathrooms in our buildings are the automatic kind that flush by themselves.. so no carpal tunnel from having to flush.

Well, for the past month and a half or so, I've been playing this game called Quake 3 Many modifications exist for this game including 'excessive' in which you start out with all weapons and 300 health. Bob and I have been playing this quite a bit now that the riding season is pretty much over in the evenings.. namely a game called 'Capture the Flag'. Now I have to say, over the few weeks I've been playing I think I've developed into a fairly decent player. There are different 'clans' out there which are teams that practice together and compete for the #1 rung on a Quake 3 Excessive CTF ladder. About 2 1/2 weeks ago, I was asked to join a clan which suprised me a bit. You have to be pretty good to join one. I had a clan in mind that I wanted to join but didn't think I was good enough. I was even asked by the #1 team to try out for their clan. Well, after a week and a half or so, I joined PR. The guys on the team are great.. really friendly and nice. They were also the #2 team on the board with some really AWESOME players. So when I play, you can see me by 'Akasha{PR}'.

Last night we had a match against BNB, the #1 team on the board. PR had a history of numerous losses against this team - they really have their act together, with strategies and different plays. I wasn't going to play at first but the server the match was going to be on caused some pretty bad lag for one of our players so I played 2 of the 3 matches on defense (which I'm good at). Anyways, I won't bore you with the details, but we won. Bob was watching over my shoulder and he was pretty nerveracked the entire time.. it was exciting! You can view the details of the match here. So my team's #1 now!

Bob is on a clan also, called FmmF. His team is off the ladder for now for some revamping of strategies/plays, but when they're back on, they're gonna kick everyone's ass. There are some amazing players on his team and they're going to be hard to beat.

Thanks Xandri and Chris.. you guys are so sweet!

I'm back at work again... I recovered remarkably quickly. Yesterday Bob and I even went on a nice trailride.. it was lovely. The fall colors were everywhere and we hadn't ridden together like that in a while so it was truly special. We took the horses out bareback, which made the experience even more enjoyable.. Bob cantered Tavi for the first time bareback and almost fell off and I was right behind him, laughing my ass off and almost falling off as well. He's such a goof.

I'm alive and well.. thanks for the well-wishes everyone.

Life goes on.. my penis size:



Tomorrow I go in.

Thanks for the support you guys.. it really means a lot that you'll be thinking of me.

I'm scared of what will happen on Friday. Scared and really sad.. I don't know how I'm going to be able to handle everything to come. I spoke with Miho Sunday and she's been incredibly supportive which is invaluable to me right now.

Thanks for calling last night Lizette.. both Bob and I were totally asleep though.. who's awake at 12:30 on a weeknight?? Hehehe.. I can't call you at work but we'll get in touch tonight.

I have to go in for emergency surgery this Friday. Life really sucks right now. Thank God I have such a wonderful mother and hon to be there for me.

Stayed home from work today.. going through a bit of a tough time.

Got more positive feedback from people in my department.. one person said that I sounded like a smarty PhD.. hehe! Well, that made my day. I didn't think I was that good.. people outside of my group are so sweet.

I have one more thing to do at work then I'm headed home.. tonight Bob and I are going to be watching Monsters, Inc. Should be fun! Tomorrow we're going to a friend's birthday party and the rest of the weekend is free to do horsey and Q3 stuff, woohoo!

Submitted by my hon..

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Gonad + Strife = WHEEEE

Ok, I've finally finished my presentation and this afternoon I gave it at the department meeting. It went fairly smooth although I did feel a bit nervous and felt like I rushed a part of it. I did try and slow down and enunciate my words..

I got really nice feedback on my slides and presentation. Lots of good questions and comments were asked and I was able to answer the ones I could fairly confidently. Several people wanted copies of my presentation as well to use for their own work.

Got feedback from several people also that I outshined my boss. Ha ha.

There is a Survivor poll at work right now.. you put in a $1 with one name. If your name gets booted you can add in another name for $1. You can't choose someone that has already been chosen. Here are the picks so far:

Neil: Teresa (cuz he thinks she's hot)
Lauren: Lex
Alex: Ethan (cuz she thinks he's hot)
Matt: Kim the slacker
Isa: Clarence
Me: Kelly, blood drinker

Friday mornings at 9 we converge to discuss the weekly show.

As sadistic as I am.. I love this quote:

"Come to the edge", he said.
"We can't. We're afraid."
"Come to the edge."
"We can't. We'll fall."
"Come to the edge." And they came. And he pushed them. And they flew.

-Apollinaire

This is brilliant. Why didn't I think of this???

See Michael transform

Ok, I'm a confirmed geek. This is my wallpaper at work. I'm working hard on my presentation, can't you tell?

My hands are swollen and sore from yesterday. It could be one of two things: Playin too much quake (doubtful) or trimming all the hedges and bushes around the house. I think this is more likely since some of those woody branches were pretty darn tough to cut. Bob and I finally got off our asses and tidy'd up our front and backyard.

When we were in the front yard, our unibomber neighbor drove up into his garage and came out to say hi to Blade. Blade of course is really excited that there is someone to give him attention and runs up to him and sticks his butt at him. "Scratch, scratch me!!" I apologize to Unibomber and say that he does that to everyone.. Unibomber says, "You know why they do that, don't you..?" Me, "Uh.. why?" (cringing) Unibomber, "Cuz that's their G-spot. They love having their G-spot stimulated" Me, silence. oh. thankyouforsharing. gross. freak.

I have to do a presentation for my department this Thursday on stuff that I only remotely know.. and I've been doing the experiment for about 5 months now. *cry* Sucks to be me. :(

So KPAX was a good movie.. slow, but it left you thinking. I'd recommend it.

Yesterday we took Blade to Pt. Isabel and then we went to IKEA to pick me up a computer desk. UGH.. let me tell you I *hate* that place with a passion. I hate all the people there.. moseying along at a mindnumbingly slow pace, the low hum of constant conversation.. it drives me nuts. As soon as we chose the desk we wanted I just hightailed it to the first floor to pick it up.. I was breaking out into a sweat because I was getting so clausterphobic. I wouldn't say it's anxiety or panic that I feel.. more like frustration. Anyways, for about $250 we bought a nice desk, chair, and a standup light for the bedroom.. not bad.

I have a whole day long experiment today :( *cry* At least it's Friday. Hopefully Bob and I are going out tonight to see 'KPAX'. That means no Q3 playin'.

Bob ordered my new box from Alienware.. should be here in 2 1/2 weeks! W00t! (Ok, I have no idea what that means, but everyone else seems to be using it so...)

So.. I finally did it. I changed the layout of my website. I like it a lot better, though there are a few things I'd like to figure out how to adjust.. more later..