I'm in a quandry here. I feel like I'm censoring myself in my blogs because I'm afraid I'll run into people in life that have read my entries and they'll judge me before they really really know me. A lot of the hits to my site are from horsey bulletin boards and the horse world is pretty darn small! So what do you think? Should I let lose and expose every juicy facet of my life or keep the diary tame?

Well, I did it.. I bought my own website. The domain name is http://www.insidehermind.com and I purchased it from here. I'm waiting to hear from the place that will host my site so I can hurry up and move my stuff over. Yay, no more pop-ups. I'll also be able to add comments to my blogger so you can tell me how much I suck! Yay!

Hey, yesterday was Isabella's birthday, Happy birthday little mare!

Here's a photo of her parents, both in costume.
http://www.ranchoencantoamor.com/paradecostume.jpg

Aren't they beautiful? :)

Ugh, I think I'm getting sick..

I've been pretty healthy this past year. Pretty healthy means I haven't had to be hospitalized like that past few years.. getting my appendix out, getting dizzy spells, etc.

Last night we discovered this Chinese restaurant, Peking Boy, that does deliveries for any orders over $10. They also give you free food for orders over $10.. what a deal! We had lemon pepper prawns, veggie chow mein, and some sort of hot tofu dish that was really good. We got free won tons. I spent about an hour in the bathroom afterwards.

We'll definitely order from them again! :)

This is bizarre.. I checked out my site stats and it jumped to almost 200 hits today. Now this isn't the part that's wierd because I posted my ride story to a few yahoo groups. The wierd part was that I was perusing through the sites that linked to my webpage (another daily diary site did this which prompted me to do so) and this page came up:

http://www.linkwatcher.com/blogsearch/?query=shaved+pussy

Apparently when you search for those two words you get my site. My cat ain't shaved and neither is the other thing your dirty mind is wondering about.

Okay everyone, here's my ride report for the Almaden CTR we attended this past weekend!

Lizette,
Regarding borrowing the horses for your wedding, I don't think Tavi would mind.. but Isabella would probably have a sh*t f*t at everything and your white wedding gown probably wouldn't look too white at the end of the ceremony.. haha.. seriously though, I wouldn't even ride her at my wedding. Young horse + Too much commotion + nerves + being a beginner rider = disaster!

Here it is!

Our Camping Trip

Yahooooo!!

Yay, I finally finished my diddy about the Skillman horsecamp.. I can't wait to go home and upload it for ya'll. We got some really nice photos.

I'm entertaining the idea of getting my own domain name and server and getting rid of all the annoying ads. That way I can also run JAVA and other scripts..

Man, these reality shows have me hooked. Right now I'm obsessed with "Big Brother" thank god for Tivo! I can just fast-forward through all the commercials and Julie Chen and get to the good stuff. I'd have to say Will is my favorite person on the show.. he's hilarious. Last night he was having a conversation with Monica and at one point said, "I think that's the smartest thing anyone's said while I've been here". In the diary room he confessed he wasn't paying the slightest bit of attention to what she was saying, it just seemed like a good thing to say at the time.. hahaha.. he's great.

I really like Bunky too.. he's like a woman PMSing all the time. He cries at the slightest provocation.. I don't think I've ever seen him in the diary room without a tear in his eye. It's funny, when he cries he doesn't just tear up - he bawls like a little girl.

It'll be interesting to see what transpires tonight..

I'm back at work.. it feels strange to be back. The weather's cold and it feels like fall is right around the corner. I took quite a few pictures at Skillman Horsecamp and I'll try and put them up tonight (if the computer's working). Our second CTR is this weekend and Isabella decided to get bitten by a pasturemate right under where the saddle will be! Good job, girl. :) I tried the crupper on her last night and she accepted it fine.. I know they say never to try anything new at a ride, but I'm queen procrastinator and if there are any hills at all I'll need one. Oh well.. if she freaks out and bucks on me the first time we hit a hill, such is life..

Just a few more hours until my mom and brother arrive.. I can't wait to see them!

Yesterday I noticed that Bob shaved his goatee off, leaving only a small patch of hair underneath his chin (he says he saw the style on an asian boy at the Depeche Mode concert and it looked cool). When I asked him about it he said he had it shaved off since *Monday*.. whooooops!! To make me feel better he said he'd been just letting it grow out.. so he just looked like he had an overall fuzz on his face.

Tomorrow we're leaving for the Tahoe National Forest to camp with the horses and the family for 4 days. It should be a blast.. I'll bring the camera and post photos. :)

Oh, I just remembered another story about P and how disgusting of a person he is.

I had question about Excel and P had just taken one of the beginner Excel classes. Rather than ask him and risk contaminated my cube site, I decided to call PC-Help and ask one of their technicians. P, *eavesdropping* on my conversation (from 2 cubes away no less - ARGH) hears me asking my question and RUNS over to my cube to tell me the answer while..I'm..on..the..phone. I turn my back to him, obviously talking on the phone and he proceeds to wait..there. He fumbles around with papers on my desk (!!), occupying himself until I get off the phone to tell me his answer. Finally, after about 10 minutes he leaves (I was asking the technician various other Excel questions). Once he hears I'm off the phone he runs over to my cube again to tell me his answer (which I just got from the technician). I dismiss him as quickly as I can "I *know* P, I *know P, I just got my answer, go away". This man was blessed with zero social graces. How he is married and has kids I have no idea. His wife must be a lesbian living under the pretense of a heterosexual sexless marriage.. that's my only explanation.

1| Open up your CD player, what's inside? Depeche Mode, Sarah Evans

2| Look in your VCR/DVD player, is there a movie? Centered Riding w/ Sally Swift

3| If there happens to be music playing right now, what is it? It's silent in the mass of cubes.

4| What are you wearing? Tan shortalls and a purple longsleeve shirt.

5| Look down, what's the first thing that catches your eye? My thighs

6| Turn on your TV if it's not on already, what network is it? I'm at work but if I turned it on it'd probably be UPN (since we watch Voyager constantly, non-stop)

7| Look out the window, what's the weather like? I couldn't tell ya, I work in a concrete building without any windows.

8| If you were to hit redial on your phone right now, where would it call? The shipping/recieving department (to bitch about where my package went)

9| Say "hello?" out loud, did anyone answer? No, everyone was confused that the silence was broken in the mess of cubes

10| What are you planning on doing next as soon as you get offline? I'm online all the time at work..

11| What are you thinking about? How annoying my next-door cube-neighbor's laugh is.

12| Are you eating or drinking anything? Yes, darjeeling tea.. the break room is out of green tea. :(

13| Does being online suck a lot? Well, it breaks the monotony called work

14| If you could have anything right now, what would it be? A million bucks, money buys happiness. :)

15| Are you singing right now? No

16| If you could have one person with you right now, who would it be? See my post on Friday, July 20th, scroll down to 'Antisocial' level.

17| What web page are you at right now? Blogger (duh), but in another window I'm looking at some random person's site, "All my blog are belong to me"

4 more hours till vacation.. I can't wait, yahooo!!!

Isa (a co-worker and I) were chatting in the cafeteria eating lunch when we spot P enter to get his food. I get so grossed out when I start talking about him because he's so vile. He gets his food then starts making a bee-line *right* towards us - ACK!!! so I give Isa the hint and we grab our trays and high-tail it outta there. I didn't even look at him, unfortunately Isa turned in the wrong direction (towards him) and he manages to get a few words out.. "Oh, you guys are done? Leaving already?" Like he was gonna just plop down and sit with us. He just doesn't get it. Isa was saying he has the mindset that just because he knows you he's entitled to be friends with you.. WRONG.

Another case in point, a lunch meeting had just ended and I was walking with Isa and Mel to Mel's car to ride back to the main site. We were almost to her car when we hear this dorky retard voice yelling at us, "Hey guuuyyys.. guyyyys.. wait up...!" I knew who it was before I turned around and all of us exchanged exasperated glances. So here comes P, running up to us with a leftover pizza boxes and drinks in hand and asks if he can ride with us. Now, it would've taken Mel months to get his stench out of her car.. so.. not a good idea. She makes up a fib and says, "Well, we're waiting for Raf." He accepts this and turns around... woohoo! He then turns back towards Mel and shoves the drinks and pizza boxes at her and insists that she take them back to the main site with us. There are just so many things wrong with this man at all levels. He just doesn't understand that we don't like him. He's a perverted old scumbag.

Just came back from my mid-year review with my direct manager (who reports to my supervisor). All went well.. I half expected him to chew me out for using the internet and e-mail too much (which I always seem to be doing whenever he comes to my cube to ask me something or pick up something from the printer which is right behind me).. but he didn't. Muhahaha.. the cycle continues..

Tuesday.. why can't this week before over and done with already! I'm sitting here at work and it's been really slow this week. Had a chat with my supervisor regarding what I've accomplished this year so far and I suprisingly sounded pretty competant. Amazing. It's interesting how much more you like your job when you're the only income-earner in the family. Anyways, it was a good talk I think.

Last night we went to ride.. I love my Isabella. She's so cute..she heard me talking with a few folks and was waiting for me at the pasture gate. As I walked up I spoke to her and she spoke back.. it's nice to have a chatty horse. Makes you feel loved.

Okay it's Monday morning after the Depeche Mode concert(s).. Bob and I had a blast! Friday night the lawn was at about 65% capacity at the Concord Pavilion so we had room to dance around, really get into it. Saturday night at the Shoreline was a much bigger crowd (read, squashed) but a better show. Dave and Martin are still as fine as ever, even if they have aged a bit.

Now, if I had to choose between them I thought I'd choose Dave.. but over the weekend I've changed my mind - here's my rationale: Dave's voice is incredibly intoxicating.. he oozes sexuality and he flaunts it onstage arrogantly through his sneers and gesticulating arms. He grabs his crotch and every woman in a 5 mile radius screams in ecstacy. Martin is different onstage. His demeanor is quieter, in the shadows. He seems almost shy.. except for when he steps up to the mike and croons his ballads with every ounce of his soul going into each note. Now that turns me on. Bob says that if I ever have a chance to have sex with them he'd let me.. yahoooo!!!!

Today is Lizette's birthday.. happy birthday!!

Depeche Mode concert tonight! I told Bob if we have a blast tonight we're going to go to the Shoreline tomorrow and catch them again. I'm obsessed.

Bob has become quite the little housewife. He keeps the house clean and makes dinner from fresh veggies.. he's such a good sport. He told me yesterday he was becomming a little nervous about finding a job. I don't mind being the breadwinner in the family.. it's fun bossing him around.. do this, do that.. hehehe.. c'mere so I can slap you around. I just need a white tank top with pit stains and I'm set.

Stupid sausage is slowly taking over my life.

A few things I wanted to deem noteworthy:

Last night and Lizette and I had a fun time redefining new definitions for the sausage while chatting about what was new in our lives. It was a lot of fun.. check out 'julienne' 'jeli' 'mangraa' (her fiance, Andy). I also thought 'bob' and 'robert' were amusing (noo.. I didn't define those).

Tomorrow is the Depeche Mode concert!! (insert girl scream here) I'm so excited. DM is my alltime favorite band in the whole wide world.. I grew up with them and remember Miho and I attending almost all the showings in Los Angeles. One of our favorite memories is being offered pot at the Irvine Amphetheatre.. we giggled like innocent little school girls and refused.. we were so saintly back then.

Their music has such a wonderful effect on me.. David Gahan's sexy sultry voice reverberates throughout my body and it makes me want to pounce the nearest testosterone producing body. Love that synth pop... *mrrrow!*

Teach the sausage!

Pretty cool site.. I taught it 'cheerful' (sorry Lizette, beat you to it), 'granola', 'stanky', and 'hehehe'.