I've been so busy at work these past few days I haven't had time to really even think! Man, I thought last week was busy, this week has been non-stop. It caught up with me a bit yesterday.. I was so sick when I got home - sniffles, sneezing, the whole bit. Of course it didn't stop me from heading out to go see Isabella in the freezing cold. With a huge pocketful of tissues I hopped on Isabella bareback and walked/jogged around the ranch until it got dark. When I got home I felt even worse so after downing some Aleve Cold and Sinus and watching American Idol and Sex in the City reruns I went to bed at 10pm. This morning I felt much better!

With all this work stuff I really haven't been able to think about this weekend.. I'm not talking about the Superbowl kiddies, but rather the first day of the entrance into my last year of my twenties. How sad. I have mixed feelings about going into this year. Matt, in his ripe old age (he turned 30 in August), says that the year of 29 is really when you start getting your life in order of how you want things to be. I'm happy with my job. I'm happy with what I have at home (China, Isabella). I'm happy with my friends. However, I thought I would be in a different place with myself and with the SO in my life. I've yet to be truely happy with myself.. but I'm working small steps towards that place where I'll be content. These past few months have been especially rough with switching around medications then deciding to go off them completely. Going off of them isn't helping, even with herbal help, so I'm looking for another medication which may help push me in the direction I need in order for me to place the things in my life where they need to be. Relationship-wise, I know in order to have a long-lasting, happy marriage, I need to be in a good place with myself, which I know will fall into place eventually. Both are intertwined.. both will be worked on this last year of my twenties.

Matt has been especially patient during these times when emotionally I'm not at my best. He's very very good at not taking jabs personally and realizing what I'm dealing with doesn't necessarily involve him. So thank you a million billion times, baby, for understanding.

Shine and Shine Only ride next weekend (Feb 11th).. yay. I'm looking forward to the first ride of the season.. SO VERY EXCITED!!

P.S. Oh yeah, after I wrote that chicken post I was talking to my neighbor (who we are convinced is a hit man, but kind-hearted) about his chickens. He has a dozen or so next door, 4 of which are roosters, and I professed my love for them. He kindly provided a dozen fresh eggs (with which I made a cinnamon apple cake) and said whenever he's out of town I can go back there and take care of them. Hooray!