Yesterday at work I was feeling lousy. I felt so tired and achey, even after taking some Aleve, so I went home to sleep it off. My whole body had the chills, even though I was all yucky and sweaty. I slept for about 3 hours after I got home with all the windows open, managed to do a few overdue household chores, and then slept again at around 11. I didn't wake up this morning until 8am, oversleeping through my non-existant alarm (oops). My stomach has also been feeling really bad from yesterday.. like really acidic and yucky. I've popped a few TUMS but that doesn't seem to help much so I took a Tagamet and even that doesn't help anymore.

I've been sleeping pretty badly the last few nights also. I've been really restless and one night I even woke up totally perpendicular to the bed.. leaving me completely disoriented when I opened my eyes. I also had this bad dream about Matt. We had this huge fight and he called me a "fat fuck" before storming away. After that he was a stranger to me.. :( What a horrible dream.

Through all this I've really been trying to find some peaceful outlets (watching TV is NOT included). So yesterday after I woke up I managed to have some quiet time reading my Martha Stewart and Fitness magazines, and a little bit of my 'Art of Happiness' book. I've decided that the stress in my life is going to kill me if I let it so I'm trying to let as much of it as I can go.. and try and relax a bit more. It's even more incentive to try and leave the bay area eventually.. it's much to fast paced and stressful here. I wonder what the average life span is of those living here vs other more rural areas of the country.