To answer Rachel's questions regarding my dream, etc..

I agree that the tidal waves and water elements represent the circumstances right now in my life that are "out of my control". I am confident I'll find a job soon, but when/where is up in the air right now and it is a bit stressful to deal with. My lease on my apartment is due in May, so I am beginning to look for another place right now, but where I'm going to be depends on where I end up working.. so I'm just waiting for these elements to fall into place before anything can be settled. I don't foresee the "settling" until after May.. so these will be a rough few months ahead. Oh yeah, I am an Aquarius.

When I was in fourth grade, my family and I moved to a very affluent area.. Palos Verdes Estates. My father was becoming very successful with his medical practice, so he was able to afford a HUGE mansion. There is no other way to describe it. There were 7 bedrooms, including maids quarters and an in-law residence, a library, entertainment room, digital kitchen, sauna, and a grand entry-way with a beautiful crystal chandelier hanging down the center of a spiral staircase. My room had 2 large picture windows which looked straight out onto the ocean and coastline. The property had a tennis court, an elaborate treehouse, acres of fruit trees, a pool, hot tub, and a looooong driveway with a private gate where visitors had to be buzzed through.

Sounds perfect, doesn't it? For the most part it was.. I spent most of my childhood outdoors playing in our safe, sheltered property. However, we learned later that the house had a bad curse on it. I know, it sounds paranormal and unbelievable, but even later we found that a Feng Shui practitioner had found the house to be filled with sharp angles, trapping bad luck into the household. We learned after we moved out that every single family that had moved into that house had some sort of financial disaster or family tragedy like we had. The room I grew up in was always cold.. it was never warm like the rest of the house. I was woken up one night by a child crying. Thinking it was one of my siblings, I rose and walked over to their rooms, both which were open. Peering my head in I still heard the crying but it was coming from neither of their rooms. I was young at the time and became frightened enough to go back to bed and try to sleep.

So, I'm not sure about Mark (my younger brother), but Lizette and I have nightmares about that house all the time. It's a constant in our lives, negative thoughts about that house. I never have dreams about the 2 places we moved into afterwards with Mom, or even the small house in Lakewood I spent most of my elementary school years.

Interview today went well.. but tomorrow is the position I really want. It's my "longshot" but dream position that I'd love to have. It's early in the morning and I have to cross the bay bridge. :( Commuting to South San Francisco might suck. I may have to think about moving.