(I wrote this yesterday but internet was down at work)
I am sooo proud of myself. I've been feeling good so I haven't done any of the self-destructive stuff that I had been getting into these past few weeks. I'm not sure what the difference is.. just from last week I haven't felt the need to cause damage to myself.

I spoke to my mom last night.. she's very sad and depressed from Empty Nest Syndrome. My brother was the last one to enter college and he's been gone from her for 2 months now. I feel bad because I can't be there for her.. but I suggested that she needed something to take care of and keep her company. That's what she's been used to all her life and now, she's alone.. no children! She just bought a home also.. so that's keeping her nice and stressed out. My dad gave me some money this month to help me out with bills in stuff.. but when my mom sent me the check from the money deposited in her account, I tore it up.. I figured she needed it more than I did. Heck, holding a balance on my credit card isn't going to kill me. So Mom, I know you read this.. take the money and go spend a day at the spa.. do something for yourself! You raised 3 awesome successful kids, now it's time for you to take some time out for yourself!!!!!!! I love you mommmmeeeee. :)

Soo.. I've been trying to convince her to get a dog. Since she's allergic to most animals, I suggested a poodle since they hardly ever shed, they're very intelligent and easy to train, and she can carry it around like a little accessory like old ladies do. This will give her a purpose in life.. to bring it to the dog groomers every other week.. dress it up in little clothes.. and put ribbons in its hair. I think she'd enjoy it. Plus she walks a lot and it can keep her company and "protect" her as well as warn her of anyone coming up to her new house. Anyone know of reputable poodle breeder in southern California? I think a miniature sized one would suit her just fine!