Inside her mind..

Not much to say today.. read this exchange of emails with psycho roommate:

Seanna:

I thought we were friends and that when we talked it was in confidence. I
would never have (and still wouldn't) tell any of the things that you said
when we were venting about the things that upset us. I am surprised you did
that.

I guess I have no choices now. I did plan to make things work and to forget
all the bad stuff that had happened, even the dent in my car that "nobody"
seems to have done. And just go on because I could not afford to move. I
even tried to work on the house to make it nicer for everyone.

Now... I guess because of some upset homesick venting to someone that I
thought was my friend I am going to be homeless. Chris wrote me this long
letter and it makes me sound like some kind of monster and it sounds like he
thinks that I would do terrible things to you guys or to the house or
something. That is terrible. I would never do anything to anyone or
anyone's things. It made me cry to think that he or anyone would think that
terribly of me...

I am not sure what all you said to him but now he thinks I am the worlds
most terrible person...I guess I should have never talked to you and trusted
you with my upset feelings, they were mostly just vents and I guess I just
needed someone to talk to about the things that were upsetting me... Didn't
mean that I think or thought that Chris was horrible. I just wanted the
house to be taken better care of and my stuff to quit coming up missing.

Now for that; I am kicked out of my home, you have a place to go... I don't
know if I do...
I thought you were my friend.... Whatever I did to you to deserve this, I'm
sorry because I would never mean to do anything bad enough to you (or
anyone)to deserve something this bad to happen to me...
So whatever I did to you that was so terrible I'm really, really sorry...

Me:

Seanna

I don't know what to say. I was prepared to forget everything as well and just leave the house and everything behind me but when Chris approached me and we talked, he wanted to know *all* the reasons why I made my decision to leave and that included differences I had with you. I felt like I was lied to and used whether you knew it or not.. as soon as I came in that one day where you had the tiff with Deb, you were extremely friendly to me, more so than that first day where I introduced myself and you were offended that I wasn't a guy like you expected.

Some of the things you've done I've found to be just... confusing. I don't know what to believe anymore.. for example, when my brother and I were in my room that one night and you came in accusing me of using your phone line. Why would I do that when I had my own? Whoever switched the phone line, I don't know.. but it was a mistake and it could've been just let go, but you continued to go on and on about it, practically yelling at me in front of my family and you WOULD NOT let the issue go.

Your conditioner wasn't stolen by Chris like you told me. I was sitting on the toilet when I had run out of toilet paper and opened up your drawer to see if I could get any nearby without having to stand up.. and saw that it was right there.. under your sink.

I don't know what's going on.. if you're lying to me intentionally to want to leave like you wanted Deb to leave or if you're really that absent-minded. I don't know what to think.. but I'm willing as always, to live the next month in peace.

I would suggest that we leave things be for now. I don't want to obsess about this issue and stress out myself at work (I already have enough stress as it is). If you have more issues.. please talk about them with Chris.. I don't want to be involved in this anymore.

And Seanna again, last email:

I thought your brother was sweet and you both laughed at me when I thought
the ice cream that you gave me was yucky... I didn't know that I was awful
to you and I would never yell at you or mean to embarrass you.
I am sorry and I will not bother you anymore...
I sincerely did not mean to be so awful... I have never had anyone think so
badly of me before...
My family and friends don't understand why we are all having so many
problems, everyone usually likes me allot.
again I am sorry, very, very, sorry.
Sea

PSYCHOTIC SCARY WOMAN!!!!!!!!!
!!!