Inside her mind..

I was chatting with a friend that I play Quake3 with the other night. He's 31, lives in Texas, and he'll be getting married in the Spring next year. He's been with his fiance for 3 years and they met through a church singles group. Both him and his fiance had some rough relationships in the past.. so when they met each other, they decided to do things differently this time. To build a solid, strong foundation, they left the physical part out of their relationship until they became engaged, and even now, they are holding off mostly until their wedding. This was a mutual decision to develop a friendship and bond first based purely on a mental connection.. before spending the rest of their lives together.

In my mind, this is something that I would be keen on doing. One of my greatest fears is feeling used by a guy physically, yet I realized that I use sex to have guys want me.. whether I like them or not (a recent epiphany in my life!). The problem would be, of course, self-control.. by nature, I am impulsive and brash. I am a strong believer in seizing opportunities as they come.. Carpe Diem! Unfortunately this has its downsides.. I am not always able to see the long term consequences of my actions. However, I view each "mistake" as a learning opportunity.. I try not to regret anything that I do, but rather use the knowledge I've gained to prevent similar errors in the future.

For now, I don't have any objection to messing around and enjoying myself. However, if I did meet the right person.. someone I knew I wanted to be with and perhaps spend the rest of my life with one day.. I would consider this.