Inside her mind..

I hate the undead so fucking much. Read my brother's review of Resident Evil.

Okay so, an update on this guy with the big dick that keeps flirting with me.

Well, he's making it quite obvious now that he's interested in me. Rafael, Isa, and I were talking and they were giving me a load of questions to ask him, to probe into his life and feel him out.. well, yesterday he asked all those questions to *me*. Anyways, I dutifully reported back to my coworkers and I think they are more excited about him than I am. I was pretty amused and delighted about it at first.. but now I'm a bit flabbergasted as to why he's chosen me to give his attentions to. Let me tell you a little story kiddies.

Junior high.. 7th grade. I had my fair share of crushes and my biggest one at the time was for a blond haired, blue-eyed boy named Jake Meyers. He's was very surfer boy cute.. quiet, and sweet. I never really spoke to him much, just admired from a distance. My best friend was friends with his best friend, a boy named Tom. Well, you know how things go.. through word of mouth, Jake found out that I liked him.. and a few days later, I found out from Tom that he liked me back. We were in the same english class and he comes up to me one day and asks for my phone number.. so maybe he can call me sometime and we could hang out.. go to the movies or whatever. It was the first time that a boy had really paid attention to me and was interested in me back. At the school dances he'd search me out and ask me to dance... and at the Cotillians he would be right there, ready to partner up with me.

Well, I don't know why.. but the day I found out that he liked me back, I began searching for all the negative qualities in this boy. He walks funny.. he's awkward and shy.. he probably smells, etc. Anything that he did made me embarrassed for him. It was awful! I made any excuse for me not to like him. Eventually Tom found out and word probably got back to Jake. Things were strange between us from that day on. His family moved away but I remember seeing him again once in high school summer class. Can you say hunk? Total babe. I remember our eyes met.. and neither of us ever said a word.

That's why I don't like games. I hate awkwardness. I hate to schmooz. I like to be pretty blunt and straight-forward. What are your intentions? These are mine.

I can feel myself going down this path with this guy that is interested in me. Looking for all the negative qualities. It's fun talking to him, but in a way I sort of dread it because I know unconscioiusly I'll be searching for those little things that I won't like. It freaks me out.