Inside her mind..
31 year old gal. Lives in Boulder, CO. Eats non-dairy powdered coffee creamer for fun. Surrounds herself with dogs, horses, friends, and one hot boy. (this is a temporary blogger template - stay tuned for major changes)Monday, December 03, 2001
I don't like going to parties because inevitably I'll have to put out the effort to talk to someone and pretend I'm interested in them. Is that self-centered of me? If so, please do let me know.
I really don't know why this is.. perhaps I haven't given parties a chance. In college I went to one frat party in my whole 4 years there. True, I did go to 'gatherings' with horsey friends or dorm friends.. but they usually didn't involve alcohol or dancing or talking with strange people.. so I didn't really consider them parties. Even having lunch with someone at work I don't know very well - I feel quite awkward and I try to invite more people so I don't have to do all the talking.. in this case it's more the fear of uncomfortable silences. That is a big hurdle in the relationship with people I first meet. The worst feeling for me is the feeling of not belonging, feeling out of place.. and that's how I feel during these situations.
So please, if I ever meet any of you out there I haven't already, please ease my nerves and reassure me that I do belong and that silence is A-ok. (this way I don't have to feel the need to babble and eventually say something idiotic)
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